I have specificially not told people about the meds before because Iíve been worried about a reaction. But this site is quite different. And really, if Iím going to progress, I need to be honest with myself.

Iíve been extremely consistent with exercise over the last week (thank you Motivation to Move!) and am very pleased. After tabulating my calories for yesterday, I was quite shocked. I ate just over 2000 calories. My ďprescribed goalĒ of calories is 1350 - 1750 given my activity level. I had to remind myself that the REASON I went to the gym was so that I could go over on my calories. But really, I was dismayed that I *treated* myself to just over 600 calories of rice. Rice is not THAT important. 600 calories!??? Ouch. Anyway, except for the chocolate soy ice cream, it was all quite healthy food. I need to keep reminding myself of that! And I RARELY go over calories, so itís okay. Itís hard to get that through my head though.

Well, Iím still in bed, deciding what I want to do today. Iíve spent an hour or so on the internet replying, posting, and reading. What Iíd really like to get motivated to do is go to a rec centre and go swimming. Well, I donít actually swim. I mainly sit in the hot tub and sauna. I read the book ďUltra MetabolismĒ a few months ago, and it really helped me out of a plateau. While it seems as though Iím always trying to get out of a plateau, I have lost weight consistently since April. Already this year I have lost about 3.5 pounds. Iím getting off topic now. Sauna. Apparently you can sweat out toxins, and thatís good for you. Apparently your metabolism and your body works best at burning fat when itís not trying to keep you healthy in other areas. Iím not interested in doing a real cleanse of any sort, because Iím not big on playing around with my calories. The liquid cleanse for a day or two that Scott mentioned sounded rather interesting though. I might give that a try on my next plateau. But at the moment, Iím doing really really well.

One of my life issues is that I get very very bored. At work, I canít sit still. I literally do WORK for 8 hours a day. One of my favorite things to do is to be so ďoverwhelmedĒ with work, that I take a five minute lunch, and get right back to working. Some people sit in the lunch room, and basically stare at each other for a whole hour. I canít do that. Why waste an entire hour? I heard a quote recently that went something like this: ďWork very hard at your job for 8 hours a day, so that one day you can be the manager and work 12 hours a day.Ē I found that inspiring to put my work away at the end of the day. My goal is to do a good job at whatever Iím doing. This carries over in other areas of my life. I read until the exact moment that Iím falling asleep and canít even reach up to turn off the lamp. When I walk - even to the bus - I put on either music or a podcast. This includes the treadmill. Some people workout without headphones. How do they do this? When I ďrelaxĒ, it must be to some form of spoken meditation. If I really have nothing to do, Iíll play a computer game. And this brings me to the thought of: Why canít I be alone with myself? What am I worried that I will think about, if I let a stray thought in? A long time ago, I read something about how people always have to have background noise. The TV needs to be on in the other room during dinner for some people. The radio has to be on in the car. Being around someone must always be filled with conversation. I remember this, but I donít remember the solution or the explanation.

Last night, my boyfriend and I put the MTM episode 75 on our respective music players, and walked home from a friendís house. It was a half hour walk, so the timing was perfect. It was nice to know that as I was hearing something funny that was being said, so was he. We did pause it from time to time so I could explain something to him (ie, ďthis is the guy I was telling you about whose friend said it was unlikely that heíd get in shape for the trip they are planning!") but in general it was quiet. Except, of course, for the podcast. I havenít listened to the afterburner yet, and really want to. But Iím still in bed, and my headphones are on the kitchen counter. How lazy am I!???

Anyway, Iím glad to get this out. I used to be an avid journalistÖ I have daily diaries going back to grade one or soÖ (Which were really silly, I might add.) When my mom died, I didnít want to remember too much, so have kept it down to an update every few weeks or so. This much consistency makes me feel fuzzy.

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    Hey Mer! I just wanted to pop by and check in on you. Sounds like you're off to a pretty great start in 2007! I hope it continues to be fab for you. 50 pounds in 2006, eh? That's just jaw-dropping. I'm glad you're proud of yourself! You deserve all the body confidence in the world. I might have to look up that book you mentioned; I've been totally stuck in a plateau since October. On the bright side though, I've been rocking the cardio and strength training, so I'm feeling pretty good. What's "Motivation to Move"? Looking forward to keeping better track of you - I'm subscribing to your blog right now so you'd better keep writing in it! Keep up the great work babe and I'll talk to you again soon. ~Monica
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