I have to vent a little...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I try to visit other Sparkers' pages on a regular basis (you inspire me!), but, lately, I have been finding it a little sad/ frustrating, too. At the risk of offending, I have to say this.. only because I WAS that person and I don't want to see anyone else fail unnecessarily. Consider this an intervention.
A lot of people seem to use their page to list all the reasons why they've gained the weight, why they've arrived at today unhappy or unhealthy, why they can't climb stairs without panting or feel comfortable in their own skin. I've seen countless stories blamed on baby weight (been there), on health problems (done that), or on life circumstances (that too). I look at those stories, and I'm struck with a profound sadness for the individual. Because I WAS that person and because I've known many of the like, I know that these particular Sparkers probably won't be around long enough to reach or surpass their goals. (I call them New Years Resolutioners.) I've made the excuse. I've conjured up the reasons. I've given up because those excuses and reasons were stronger than me (they'd HAVE to be, right? or I wouldn't be so fat or so unhealthy or so unhappy). Here's the secret. Are you listening?
Until we have the strength to admit that WE are the reason that we are where we are, until we can take responsibility for doing this to ourselves, we cannot succeed. Until we admit that this was OUR choice (MY CHOICE) to be fat, unhealthy and unhappy, than we can never choose to be fit or healthy. And we can never choose to be happy.
I'll be the first to say it (now):
I chose fast food over good cholesterol. I chose quick fixes and easy answers over change. I chose to be fat when I could have been skinny. I chose to be sick when I could have been healthy. I chose to be depressed when I could have been happy.
But today, I choose otherwise.