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Its BITTER SWEET!!!!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

it seemed like yesterday we were always together...we went out partying, we went shopping together,u were at my house,i was at yours...we were joined at the hip if u saw 1 u saw the other!!!!!

now I LOVE you but at the same time I c for myself that you are a user that u you never cared you used me for convience...what I thought was a special bond only turned out to be...B.S.

when your son got locked up &u called crying I rode with 3hrs away
when you needed food I bought it...
when u didn't have money for your hair I did it on credit until your next pay....
when your mon said bad things about you I comforted you....
when your dad passed from cancer I was there....
when u didnt have gas money I helped u until pay day
(u make 60,000 in the federal govt) Im a single mother of 4
when you allowed you sons friend to move into your apartment and 2weeks later someone broke in and trashed your apartment....i helped you clean up
when you had to be rushed too the hospital I was there
when the dr told you u you had to have a hysterectomy I prayed for your health

I NEVER JUDGED YOU...
I WAS YOUR FRIEND!!

but I was CONVIENT!

IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU!!!!

after you lost your father you became a different person...
you deleted me as your friend on facebook...but still called me lil sis and smiled in my face....until I found out!! lol
but the sad part is I could feel us going/GROWING in 2 separate directions!

you became grand...

I NEVER BASED OUR FRIENDSHIP ON DEEDs !!

you would tell me things that would make others seem like the bad person but in reality its you that's the bad apple!!! you treat people bad you use them or at least me!

I can only say we had good times going out
you did help me by taking my mom to work a couple of times
but our friendship was one sided in your favor not that a friendship is based on who does what but GOD opened my eyes for me to cí

n order for me to move on with my life I must forgive you!
I forgive you for thinking your better than people
I forgive you for talking about me..
I forgive you for judging me...
I forgive you for not paying my mother the money u owe her
I forgive you for using me
I forgive you for THE LIES YOU TOLD AT MY JOB
but most importantly I forgive for NOT CHERISHING OUR FRIENDSHIP
I FORGIVE YOU FOR BEING A USER!

I pray for you I wish you the best

God I'm asking you to remove this person from my heart and mind..i pray that you bless her allow her to find peace with in herself that will allow her to stop mistreating people....Give her PEACE LORD!

LORD I'M PRAYING FOR CLOSURE BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW THAT THE REST IS YOUR BATTLE...DON'T ALLOW THIS PERSON TO GAVE HOLD .. I ASK THAT U GIVE ME A PEACE OF MY MIND....

I will no longer be held back n my life.....GOD I FORGIVE HER and I give it to you!

T HANK YOU GOD FOR THE EXPERIENCE...LESSON LEARNED!
a FRIENDSHIP IS NOT 1 SIDED!!!

sO GLADE I DONT NEEF FRIENDS TO B COMPLETE

GOD COMPLETES ME!!!



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  • v MEKMEK2
    You was 100% in this post. I agree with you, I had to removed a friend from my life I know since we were 9 years old. she also changed when her grandma got sick. I feel to move in life you have to get the people who are Not real and fake out of your life.
    1813 days ago
  • v BAHAMIANJENNI
    This is my FIFTH time reading this blog and I agree 100%. I totally wish that I didn't understand how you feel, and that these feelings didn't apply to both romantic and platonic relationships in my life. (Sigh)

    Thank you so much for articulating my thoughts so clearly in this blog. God bless you as you stay strong and focused on Him.

    Jenni
    2154 days ago
  • v SPROULLT
    That was well said and it appear to be deep from the heart.. I hope the messenger received the message.........
    2175 days ago
  • v TRAINER_T
    emoticon Good for you, for loving all people and it is the power of prayer and grace that is forever.
    2181 days ago
  • v FITNESSVIXENN
    YES I MUST AGREE WITH NEWCARL YOU WENT TO THE RIGHT ONE GOD...HE IS TH EONE TO GO TO HE WILL HEAL YOU HEART AND HE ALWAYS MAKES A WAY...I WENT THRU WHAT YOU WENT THRU ALSO...SHE IS CUT OUT OF MY LIFE NOW...BLOWS MY MIND HOW PEOPLE ARE AROUND YOU ACTING LIKE THERE YOUR FRIEND..WHEN ALL ALONG THEY WANT TO BE YOU OR WANT WHAT YOU HAVE..JUST ENVING YOU THE WHOLE TIME..SAD...NOT KNOWING THEY CAN WORK HARD TO GET THE SAME...KEEP YA HEAD UP SISTHA emoticon
    2181 days ago
  • v NEWCARL
    Wow, you are a very strong woman. You went to the right Person to ask for forgiveness and you shall be blessed for it. Some lessons are harder to learn than others and it seems that you have a grip on it. Pain has no bounds but healing doesn't either. My prayers are with you and your healing.
    2181 days ago
  • v CURVYCC
    Excellent blog! Been there done that! WOW!!!

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  • v RUNNINKAT
    The only thing I can say is WOW! You are strong and amazing.
    2181 days ago
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