As usual... I was doing something really great and life happened. I made it through boot camp at the beginning of August. I didn't lose any weight but lost 6" off my body.. I could see results. Then life happened. My grandfather died, I started a new job, blah, blah... and I haven't worked out in a month.

I know what I need to do... just need to do it. I am having an internal struggle with working out with others or working out by myself. If I work out with 'my friends' I have a tendency to not work as hard or give up. It's easy to tell them no or make up excuses.

When I work out by myself ... I can think about things. In some strange way I push myself harder... almost as if I am not afraid to fail cause my friends aren't around. Working out by myself doesn't just mean alone. It means I am also working out in exercise classes where I don't know anyone. The downside, I am finding that my friends (one in particular) make me feel guilty for working out on my own. As if it is my fault they are not exercising because I am not with them. And because of this ... I am not working out at all.

How do I make that emotional break? How do I make this person understand, it's not them... its what I have to do?

Another obstacle I am finding, my work schedule is making it hard to do any classes at the gym. Luckily the weather is getting more bearable and I can start riding my bike again or walking in the neighborhood without working about heat stroke.

I know what I need to do... I just need to do it.

I want to succeed and I can't wait for the day that I write about successes on here instead of obstacles.