Reflection Run: Make a Decision Already!
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
I am having such a hard time trying to make a decision about my running.
I’ve decided several times what I was going to do, say that’s it, I’m doing it, only to begin questioning my decision an hour later and having doubts again.
And so the cycle begins over.....
All summer long I’ve been struggling with my running. I’m almost 90% sure that it was because of the heat and humidity this summer.
And this summer, for some reason (again I’m hoping it’s just the heat and humidity) I’m running slower.
However, there is this nagging doubt that there is more to it.
I run. That’s it. Plain and simple. That’s all I do is run.
No tempo runs….No speed work…No drills, hills or frills…..NOTHING.
This is me…..
When I was looking for my full marathon training plan, which I’ve been looking at all different ones for weeks now, I couldn’t find one I was absolutely in love with. Sure, I found ones that worked and built up the mileage needed, but they didn’t thrill me.
So, I started thinking….Did I just want to run or did I want to run a plan??
Part of me wants to ramp up my running and become a faster, stronger runner.
But that would mean, speed work, tempo runs, hill work, all the drills.
It also means I could risk injury. I’ve seen so many of my friends get injured and not be able to run for weeks, even months, and that scares me.
The other part of me wants to stay passive and just run….the plain and simple, *hey I crossed the finish line* run.
After thinking about it for quite some time, my first decision was just to run.
Then I came across a moderately conservative training plan that had me doing speed work and tempo runs on alternating weeks and my decision was unmade.
I printed this plan out.....I read it, reread it, reread it again, slept on it, reread it again in the morning, afternoon and evening….thought about it, thought about it some…slept on it.....reread it and thought about it again.....and then finally!
Ok! I’m going to do it.
I was going to ramp up my running….And I was happy with that decision. I told a whole bunch of people my decision.
I was really excited….I was going to train to run faster!
Not more than 2 hours later, I was having doubts again.
Not about the tempo runs or the hill work….I think I could handle those.
But, uh oh, speed work was scaring me!
I’ve never wanted to do speed work and I still don't!
I went through this cycle of making a decision and unmaking a decision for about 2 weeks.
I drove myself nuts.
I drove my husband nuts.
So today, during my *easy* 6 mile run, I started thinking about what I really wanted.
I don’t have a need to go really fast.
But I’d like to at least be able to run faster than what I do now.
I want to run and not injure myself.
I want to enjoy running, not dread the workouts.
This is my first full marathon. My goal is to cross the finish line.
I also decided that I do need some type of challenge.
Here is my plan….
I’m going to train with the moderately conservative marathon training plan that I originally chose.
I will do the tempo runs….I will do the long slow distant runs….I will do the easy runs.
I will NOT do the speed work …..(unless I feel like doing fartleks.)
I will substitute the speed work for hill runs
On the alternate weeks that speed work is listed, I will run the bridge.
Life IS Good!