Monday, September 06, 2010
well here I am exposing the most inner parts of who I am. Im using my down time to try to figure out some of how I can overcome this weight issue. I decided to see a "Professional" thinking this would help. I figure everyone needs a bit of help.I have had health issues and hate brocolli and am losing the battle on multiple ways in which to try to love the stuff. So I trotted on down to see said therapist. Im stressed. I relay to her that ive lost 15 lbs and she replies well "Im glad you did something about this because , you dont want to be a fattie" Let me tell you I did not expect this. I was expecting horns, confetti falling from the ceiling..bells, whitsles, handshakes and a heck of a lot more.Im beginning to think Ive wasted my time and hers because she wants me to go out and get a lapband. Of course I have a dear friend who struggles with hers and the picture is not all as it seems. She is still struggling to overcome her issues. I am what mom would call plump, not morbid but according to the docs chart I need to do some work fast, so Im back and it works if you work it.Ive made an major overhaul, ive taken to measuring everything which I thought was absurd when I first started.And the most ironic thing is I had an eating disorder 15 years ago and know what its like to be on the other side of things when I am stressed.Too much, too soon..and its all over for me.So there is power in words. Choose the words you say about others and yourself carefully. I no longer look to others for my self esteem, this chick does not have a clue to what I have been through and never will.Be proud of who you are at whatever stage you are in, in the birthday suit you were given. We only have one life. many friends here at Sparks and they are all here for support. Yes I want to be healthy...thats all I want. Im proud to say Ive got a family who laughs at my effort to change the ways in which we eat.I got an 87 year old man to finally eat yogurt this week, How cool is that.Stay healthy, laugh and most of all be proud of who you are. I am.