Monday, September 06, 2010
What a labor to keep this weight off only to find that I gained 30 pounds back. I am so discouraged right now. I started again today, really keeping track. I went to the doctor for a new prescription for high blood pressure, and they weighed me. The scale was always my enemy, but this was a horrible awakening. I felt myself getting bigger by the day. I still tried to exercise, but I know I have been eating late at night, which I didn't do before. When I lived alone, I did well, but now I find it so hard since reconciling with my husband. My mom passed away in April and it has been so hard emotionally. I lost my initial weight by being stressed out and worrying, that I didn't eat at all. Now, that I have regained my appetite a little, I also regained the pounds. I am still going to try, I have to do more exercise, but I feel so down lately. I wish I had the motivation I used to. I pray to the Lord, that He will guide me, help me, cause I know He will never leave or forsake me.