Well, it has been about a week since I decided to come back here. I have been checking in, I just haven't really had anything to say so I haven't blogged. I can't say that tonight will be a very positive note, but I guess it's good to get it all out.
I just have no clue where my motivation went. I tell myself that I need to get on the ball and get moving and working towards living a healthier life and then I just feel so blah about everything it is hard to talk myself into it. I really don't know how to find that mojo that I lost. I don't know what was going on last time I had that fire... I wish I could recreate it.
I really think I need to find a counselor or something like that. I really would like to know why I keep getting in my own way. I do think I am worth it, and I really can envision the end result, and I really do want it... but its just so HARD. And it hurts. And I am whiny...lol.
I have been listening to Jillian Michaels podcasts that I downloaded for free on iTunes hoping that would motivate me. Really she is very interesting, but I really haven't had any Aha! moments. I dont know exactly what I am expecting to happen... the cartoon lightbulb above my head to pop on? LOL Unlikely.
If anyone has any tips or tricks that get you up and moving when you really don't want to please share them... I need all the help I can get!
I didn't do so well this week on my goals. I did get to bed earlier on the nights I had to get up early for work the next day (had some vacation days I had to use so I slept in for those) I did cook dinner most nights. I slipped up on Wednesday and pretty much the whole rest of the weekend. My eating really has been bad. Just for kicks I logged my food for today and another day last week and I really didnt think I did very good, but I sure didnt think I did THAT bad. Just goes to show that I really have no clue anymore... I need to work on that. And I did ok at the picking up the house thing... I wanted to make more progress while I was off work, and that didn't happen, but at least it didn't get worse...lol.
So this week my goals are:
Drink more water. At least 2 bottles a day at work and one at night at home.
I will exercise 3 times this week, even if it isn't for very long... I just need to get up and DO SOMETHING!
Go to bed on time again this week and adding to that, I will also get up earlier. I got up early a couple of times last week and it was nice to not be so rushed in the morning getting ready for work.
And also I will log my food. I will do my best to do it here so I can see the stats on it, but if all else fails I will at least write it down on paper.
So water, exercise, sleep earlier, up earlier and write everything down that I eat. I can do that. I am also going to start reading my Spark book again. :) Hopefully that will help me get motivated again. Heaven knows I need to figure something out.