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August Checkpoint

Sunday, September 05, 2010

August was a difficult month. I was either fully on or fully off. It was either easy or impossible to make myself exercise. I made 22 of 31 days. That's more missed workouts than in the previous 4 months combined. The number of workouts was down, the number of minutes was down, the number of miles was down. My average heartrate for those workouts was higher, so I pat myself on the back for working harder when I did make it.

I try not to beat myself up when I fall short. I'm a pretty forgiving guy. That sometimes makes it hard to hold myself accountable. I remind myself that I don't want to live with the consequences, slower weight loss and more anxiety. The numbers are not a judgement of my worth as a person; they are measurements to help me reach my goals. I did manage to stay in the right calorie band, preventing weight gain.

I've noticed a positive cycle when using exercise to fight depression and anxiety. The exercise diminishes the two, which increases my desire to exercise, which further reduces both, and so on. Unfortunately, the reverse is also true. When I don't make myself exercise, the symptoms don't get better, which makes it harder to make myself exercise. It doesn't help that the drug prescribed for anxiety is also all or nothing. Either I take a little, and don't notice any effect, or I take a little more, and I feel wonderful, but only have the energy to sit around for hours feeling wonderful :-). Lately, I've been taking none, and trying to channel the nervous energy to productive uses. I have the former down; the latter is a struggle.

# of Workouts: 29
Days with Workouts: 22
Minutes of Workouts: 1,556
Running Miles: 98.2
Bike Miles: 10.76
Stepper/Elliptical Miles: 7.96
Total Miles: 129.92
Ave. Workout BPM: 131
Median Peak Workout BPM: 152
Workout Heartbeats: 167,418.

Now to work on having a better September.
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EUPHRATES 9/6/2010 2:12AM

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New month, new start - good for you taking it in stride. You CAN do this!

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