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Pool party = some dread

Sunday, September 05, 2010

We're going to a friend's pool party today. I like hanging out with this crowd, it's a beautiful day to be outside, and I love swimming. So how can anything be wrong?

It's the thought of spending an afternoon in a swimsuit.

I hate my thighs and hips. I woke up one day in my 30s and realized I had my mother's thighs. I don't know whose thighs she had at that point, maybe her mother's. But my thighs had transformed - no longer cutely chubby, like a baby, they now were bubbled with cellulite and spider veins. And these days, 20-ish years later, there are some wrinkles and sags around the knees.

So there's that feeling of dread at the thought of time in a swimsuit.

I know, there are coverups. Wraps. All those disguises we wear to cover "problem" areas.

But there are those times of walking to the pool's edge. Getting out of the pool and towelling off. All that. All those moments when those thighs will be exposed.

I'll brave it. But I have to admit, there's that feeling of dread in the middle of my stomach, those random thoughts that maybe I should skip the pool and just sit by the side. I won't, because I do love to swim. But there are those moments.
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    Oh, we are so critical of ourselves!! I just remind myself that no one is looking at me because -- everyone else is so worried about her OWN darned thighs or whatever . . . and that helps a little!!
    2751 days ago
    I know that you know that you can get through this. Think of how much better your thighs look now that you've lost all that weight. Have a great time!
    2751 days ago
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    Do you remember that conversation we had about the costumes us " Fruma's" have to wear. The idea is good to be modest but they are so ugly and they would make a snake look fat. I think just wear the seronge and jump in as fast as you can. emoticon
    2751 days ago
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