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Sunday, September 05, 2010

Here I am again...even tho I think this might have been more for the newbies. I decided to do it too. Sickness...depression. All of these. I have been fighting with lyme disease, COPD.. sleep apnea...and a few other things as well as stress. I also have panic disorder. SO when things get to me (daily) I feel like I am miserable, alone and most likely dying...and that food might as well be my comfort. I am still having tests done and know that mentally..I need to lose weight to better some of the conditions I already have. But it seems like so much on me at once. I struggle thru and do well for a while then a new health issue hits and knocks me for a loop. I am sure others whom I am aquainted with on the teams already know this. Thats my blog in a nutshell. The things that hold me back are clear to me. Making them go away not so sure.


C-Change the unhealthy habit I wish to . Nighttime eating. By days end my stress is crazy and as I begin to unwind and I have to take something to help me sleep by the time it relaxes me more...I begin to want to eat everything. I want to instead drink a glass of water and think of something else to do until I am able to sleep. I think I will make it a stretch time. I do not have a dedicated diet buddy or anything or I would say thats the time I would call on them to strengthen me. That is not to say I wont be supportive and considerate of them, I do not need someone just for myself...but someone who needs me to with a likeminded be there for each other, I have 0 support at home.

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    I was mainly thinking of someone who didnt mind sending a few motivational texts and checking in via txt messages. It just seems to help me. I had a few before but they are now off the wagon. I dont want to invade anyones privacy with phone calls. But i did so well a while back when i had a txt buddy we checked each others calories for the day after dinner and pushed each other to get off our butt. We only sent a few a day but it kept me accountable.
    2725 days ago
    You have just said some of the things I go through to the "T"!! I get the munchies so bad, it's a joke! I have been finding some things that work for me...carrot sticks, celery, herb teas, but to take my meds and get into bed and stay there!! I am willing to talk on the phone, we have a bit of of time difference, but if reaching out helps, and gives you the support you need, by all means lets talk! We can message each others phone #'s. Thanks for your blog, you are very inspiring! Jill
    2725 days ago
  • !!KELL!!
    Hey girl....if you have yahoo messenger add me....southernbelle20056...we can chat it up....i would love that.....I know exactly what you are saying here...I am a huge disappointment to myself...and I would love for us to talk and encourage each other...
    2725 days ago
    I'm here! I'm not good on the phone but if you have AIM I could talk to you via Instant Messenger. Send me a spark mail if you're interested.

    I have problems with nighttime eating, too. It's gotten better since I've made a rule that I only eat at the table. Then even if I'm having a snack it's at the table instead of in front of the tv or the computer. It keeps me mindful of what I'm eating, and has helped me a LOT.

    We have a lot in common, though I won't go into it all here. Just shoot me a message if you want.
    2726 days ago
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