BLC - 14 FEELINGS
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Here I am again...even tho I think this might have been more for the newbies. I decided to do it too. Sickness...depression. All of these. I have been fighting with lyme disease, COPD.. sleep apnea...and a few other things as well as stress. I also have panic disorder. SO when things get to me (daily) I feel like I am miserable, alone and most likely dying...and that food might as well be my comfort. I am still having tests done and know that mentally..I need to lose weight to better some of the conditions I already have. But it seems like so much on me at once. I struggle thru and do well for a while then a new health issue hits and knocks me for a loop. I am sure others whom I am aquainted with on the teams already know this. Thats my blog in a nutshell. The things that hold me back are clear to me. Making them go away not so sure.
L- List my goal for BLC 14, 25 LBS LOST AND TO MAKE A REALLY DEDICATED DIET FRIEND PARTNER TO BOOST EACH OTHER. VIA TEXT,PHONE,HERE.
C-Change the unhealthy habit I wish to . Nighttime eating. By days end my stress is crazy and as I begin to unwind and I have to take something to help me sleep by the time it relaxes me more...I begin to want to eat everything. I want to instead drink a glass of water and think of something else to do until I am able to sleep. I think I will make it a stretch time. I do not have a dedicated diet buddy or anything or I would say thats the time I would call on them to strengthen me. That is not to say I wont be supportive and considerate of them, I do not need someone just for myself...but someone who needs me to with a likeminded goal...to be there for each other, I have 0 support at home.