Saturday, September 04, 2010
...till I reach "onederland". I was so happy to see that I lost nearly 3 pounds this morning, after not losing anything last week. And I can't wait....I believe I'll be under 200 within the next few weeks.
But, I have a problem. I've been wanting to eat like crazy this past week. I've been mostly good about controlling myself, but I feel like I have a two-year-old on my shoulders pulling my hair. Never had a two-year-old on my shoulders pulling my hair, but I'm sure it would feel the same as what I'm feeling. I want to eat, and I want to eat now, when I'm bored, and when my emotions are running high. But I can't give in; not when I want to lose weight.
Walking helps, but sometimes my body is against me even there. One of three things usually aches on my walks: my back; my feet; or my right big toe. Maybe I'm walking too much, but I doubt it. I'm only walking 2-4 miles a day (sometimes longer), and I've been walking every day for over 4 months now. All I know is that I don't walk as quickly as I could...my body won't let me sustain a quick pace for more than a few minutes.
I've been trying to think of other activities, besides walking, I could do to help with my cravings...things that keep my mind and body occupied and not thinking about food. Things like reading, writing, meditating, chewing sugarless gum, and even fidgeting. And they've helped for the most part. But sometimes I feel like I need something else, and I'm not sure what.
Anyway, I'm rambling here. I originally just wanted to say that I was closer to "onederland" than I've ever been and that I can't wait. I'm excited.
So I hope you have a great day.