Friday, September 03, 2010
Tonight I went to my son's football game, and drove home in tears and feel so frustrated and angry. My son has been conditioning all year, played Lacrosse so he would be better in football, lifted weights since last football season ended. He currently is one of the top weight lifters, the fastest defensive player and can pancake almost everyone on the team. Yet he sits the bench so a kid who was cleared this Monday could start tonight while my son stood and watched missed blocks, runners allowed to go down field because of missed blocks and watch his team lose because this kid who has not practiced one single day since practice started and another who he was not aware of was playing defense because he played offense for the scrimmages till the last one and only the simple team is starting in front of him. The boy with the knee operation has a popular last name, and the other boy his dad coaches Youth league football.
I know life is unfair but to do this to a young man, is so wrong, and to tell him he has improved 10 fold then totally ignore him because this kid with the last name can play without ever proving himself to anyone, just showed up and played. The same kid had someone sitting in front of me while watching the game and I said something about he should not be playing informed me the doctor cleared him on Monday and he was allowed to play now, and that I needed to shut up. What was worse was that was not even talking to the B$$@Qh.
I know that he could easily go to college he had colleges tell him to send footage this season from a one day camp and one of the colleges is a Division I college - West Virginia. But that is not going to happen because he is not playing so those who he pancakes in practice can play because of their daddy's.
The thing that upset me probably more than anything was that his father, my ex came to the game with my other son and his mother. They drove 3 hours to the game and are driving 3 hours home, and he did not look good at all, and has stage 4 Renal cell carcinoma or Kidney Cancer and he looked the worse that I have ever seen and he was not walking with surety and seemed frail and weaker than last week for some reason. It is not that I love him, but it upset me that he drove that far to watch his son be in 5 plays.
God is not suppose to give us more than we can handle guess he thinks too much of me because I am really at my wits end right now, and it seems like everything is wrong and just keeps getting worse. My Mom says that if were not for bad luck then I would surely not have any and seems that is what keeps happening, but why my son?
The final insult of insults tonight was several kids are now playing both ways and no matter how bad they screw up they continue to play and yet most kids stand on the sideline and do nothing while these kid wonders miss tackles, let players slip through there hands and run down the field. I can not in any way shape or form understand how a team of 85 players would need to play 5 or 6 kids both ways. Yet we have a complete different group to go out for kick offs and punts, then back off the field so the so called 5 or 6 wonder boys can go back out and lose the game because they think they are better even when in practice they get their butts handed to them.
SORRY for venting, but I am so angry and so tired of pretending that life is good when it is the pits and just keeps kicking me down.