Disappointment is word that I think scares a lot of people but it is something that we all face on a day to day basis. I'm rather disappointed in myself as of late. I had been keeping up with spark and monitoring everything I had been taking in as well as walking everyday. But lately, I've slacked off big time and there is no legit reason for it. I need to get my crap together and just stick with it.

I have registered for a zumba class so I am planning on getting my food right in the next week so that I am ready for exercise once the class starts. That means, no more pop and sticking within my ranges everyday. It's hard to keep a grip on everything and remain focused but my health is at stake. My tiredness I attribute towards being overweight as is my back pain and such. I'm really hoping that since I am paying for these classes, I will be more motivated to keep it going.

The thing about losing weight is knowing that you have to be really ready to do it ... similar to an alcoholic who needs to stop drinking. They will always drink like a fish until they are absolutely ready to stop drinking. Same with those of us who are in need of losing weight and getting healthy. Something has to push us to that all-time low in order to be absolutely ready to stop a previous lifestyle of not exercising and eating poorly. The change has to come within and has to come for yourself rather than for others. The reward will be amazing but to stop any sort of addiction, it takes hard work, dedication, and motivation. Without one of these things, it will not work. I pray that I can keep it up :)