It's no longer about losing weight

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Thursday, September 02, 2010

I woke up this morning and decided to climb onto the scale all bleary-eyed, just to see if I'd lost anything(and I was betting I hadn't). I stepped off the scale in shock, rubbed my eyes to clear them and stepped back on. It was true, I've lost over 30lbs since my journey began.

While it made me happy, I realized I hardly ever step on the scale anymore. It used to be that I didn't get on the scale because I was afraid of what I'd see--the same numbers as always, or worse, climbing numbers. Now I don't get on the scale very much because I just don't care. I know I'm working at my goal, and I know I'll get there when I get there. I'm doing the best I can right now, and a number isn't going to change that.

At first this was all about losing weight, and some vague things about being healthy. I didn't quite define what I meant by healthy, but in my head healthy was always an image of a thin me. Now it's not. I no longer visualize myself thin when I visualize what I mean by healthy, I don't see myself at all, I see what's in front of me.

I see myself hiking with my hubby and daughter. I see us camping. I see the river ahead of me as I go white water rafting for the first time. I see a wall of rock climbing high into the sky above me--I want to go rock climbing. I see what seems to be an endless path in front of me as I'm running my first marathon, but then...I see the finish line. I see my grandkids, and my great grandkids. I see the many years ahead, all the things I have to look forward to.

Yeah, I see all that in my future and I'm only 26. Thin? Yeah, that sounds nice. Healthy, active, and a spritely old fart? That's what I'm talking about. I want to be one of those crazy old ladies that's up at the crack of dawn every morning to go for a run. I want to enjoy the sunrise and the smell of morning dew even when I'm old. I have no desire to be bedbound and depressed. Who does want that?

Everytime I get on the elliptical or go for a walk or even lift my daughter (that troublesome little thirteen pound weight that's always with me. lol) I see THAT future. I've finally defined healthy, and it has nothing to do with the size of my jeans.

Edit: Because so many people seem to be interested in health goals instead of weight goals, I've now formed a team that focus's on just that. None of our challenges will have anything to do with the number on the scale. Thank all of you for sparking me to do this!
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    1625 days ago
    emoticon blog! I started out the same way; I just thought about losing the weight but now, after losing 40 pounds, I'm more concerned about just being healthy, eating right, and toning up--As well as living life! emoticon
    2506 days ago
    Thank you for your blog, I agree whole heartedly. When I first started around Jan of this year, my goal was purely weight. I had lost some prior to joining Sparkpeople, and found this to be about healthy living/eating too. and I lost an additional 12 lbs this Spring. I used to picture myself in the future at my "perfect goal weight". I was obsessed with the scale sometimes weighing 3x per day, but it never moved, unless it up and down my 3 lb range. I've been at a plateau since around April and have since realized that this isn't solely about weight. The weight is just a number I picked out because that's what I weighed when I met my husband and I was happy with that size and shape.

    What I've learned since is that what I've gained in this process is so much more important to me than just losing weight. I know now that more will come off in time, but the actual number isn't my #1 goal any longer. I eat healthy, exercise regularly, and I feel great. My body has changed so much, more defined, and my clothes get looser. I've gone down 42 lbs in 2 years and 3 clothes sizes. I can do so much more than ever before and I enjoy getting out and walking, getting my exercise, and even ST. I have truly changed my lifestyle and I love it. I'll continue with these changes, meanwhile, I look forward to all the future holds. We've already become more active vacation-wise, and I look forward to all the future plans and explorations, doing things I never thought I'd be able to at my previous weight and being so out of shape. I look forward to hiking in the mountains with my hubby and snorkeling and Snuba in the islands, even if I have to get into a bathing suit. I'm not thin, and I'll never be thin, but that's not been my goal. Just being comfortable in my skin at a particular point, is what I want. I'm pretty close to that.

    It truly isn't "only" about the weight any longer.

    2510 days ago
    Yeah you! emoticon I agree with you wholeheartedly.
    2511 days ago
    I like what you said about not having to get on the scale to feel good about your progress. Thanks you for sharing.
    2512 days ago
    way to go fellow sparker---i've just started and your blog was very inspiring! i really beleive if you are healthy then you are indeed beautiful. emoticon
    2512 days ago
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  • 57CHEVY
    I just emailed this to myself so I could read it over and over. This says exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks!
    2512 days ago
  • HOTTIE41465
    Great Blog!
    2512 days ago
  • MANDI_78
    Thank you so much for sharing! You are an inspiration to us all on what we all should want. You are right weight is just a number. Congrats on your weightloss and good luck on meeting your future goals.
    2512 days ago
    Great blog and well worth reading.
    2512 days ago
    Way to go and I think I would like to join that team
    2512 days ago
    What a smart, young, healthy woman you are!
    And you are doing this before you get to be 50 like me!
    I love your thought know what it's REALLY all about! You are a true inspiration to me today!
    Thanks for your thoughts!
    2512 days ago
  • MAGDAVIS4458
    You are really good with words. You should write a book. Even though I'm exactly twice your age I can relate to everything you said.
    2513 days ago
    Well said and very inspirational. You've hit the nail on the head: it's our future quality of life, not the numbers we can hold as our goal.
    2513 days ago
    What a great blog! You are so right - I don't see the "thin" me either... just the one who isn't in a hospital bed with tubes all over... or in a nursing home... I love to picture myself in my 80s and still fit! If I can to dyat, I will have met my real goal!! A good reminder that we are in this for the long haul!
    2513 days ago
  • LISAD1220
    Whew! Your blog blew me away! Awesome insight! Thanks for sharing.
    2513 days ago
    Wow, very awesome inspiring blog. Thanks for posting.
    2513 days ago
    Way to go....very inspirational! And through it all, with the right outlook and doing the right things, the number on the scale will continue to follow! Woo-Hoo! :) Keep those dreams and visions alive, they will continue to propel you forward on your journey!
    2513 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    Congrats on your 30 lbs success. Your great attitude will help you reach your goals.
    2513 days ago
    Thanks so much for posting this . . . it helped me realize that I know longer believe that the SCALE will tell me when I've achieved my goal. Who cares about a number - whether is is weight, BMI, or dress size? . . . Really, it is all about having the health and fitness level that will take you where you want to go for the rest of your life!
    2513 days ago
    Enjoyed reading your blog.
    2513 days ago
  • TINA_B2
    Awesome blog. This is where I want to be in my journey. I'm almost there...

    2513 days ago
    Thank you so much for your perspective. I've been having a difficult time lately and this is truly another eye opener and some hella motivation!
    2513 days ago
  • ABB698
    emoticon That's the attitude that will win the race! Keep up the good work! emoticon
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    2513 days ago
    That is a great accomplishment to not rely on the scale!!
    2513 days ago
    What a great blog. At 44, I've found my energy doubled since starting SparkPeople. I'm now able to keep up with my two teenagers, their activities and my own.

    I've hit a plateau, not really loosing anything, but feeling stronger and happier. I think that's the best! My husband even noticed the difference in my attitude and attention to everyone in my family... even the cat and dog :)
    2513 days ago
    I can't wait until I feel the same way. Right now I'm avoiding the scale because it isn't going down. I'm sure that am probably loosing inches though.
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    2513 days ago
    Bravo to you! I hope to get there some day. As for today, I'm chained to the scale.
    2513 days ago
    LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!! I started this journey to lose the weight, But!! I'm so happy to be eating healthy, and go for my morning walks, and just feel great!! Now, its not just about losing weight, its about feeling great!! The weight loss is now a bonus!! I too want to enjoy My Children growing up!! Now, when we go camping, I get to bike ride with them!! How cool is that!! emoticon
    2513 days ago
    You are right on! Great blog! emoticon
    2513 days ago
    You go Girl!
    2513 days ago
    What a lovely blog! Beautifully written and SO true. emoticon
    2513 days ago
    Awesome!!!!!!!!!!! I enjoyed reading your blog. It was very enspiring. Thank You
    2513 days ago
    Good for you! We all need to learn this lesson - well, I do anyway.
    2513 days ago
    I decided to quit Weight Watchers for the same reason today. It's not good for my sense of well-being. I'm a lifetime member, but I ignore the points system because I don't like it and I have only been going once a month to maintain my membership. I have been realizing for a long time that WW doesn't make me feel good about myself. What's the difference if I went up a pound or a half a pound or a few ounces? Or 2 pounds? It may not mean anything at all. I don't want to be focused on pounds like that. Goodbye WW and points and pounds.
    2513 days ago
    For some reason, this made me cry. For me, it's always been about the numbers...i want to be 120, I want to be size 5 jeans....I don't know. I just feel really hollow now.
    2513 days ago
  • DRB13_1
    I realize I (like most people) also make the mistake of thinking of this endeavor as something I can "will" to do, and now realize what you have depicted so beautifully - it's REALLY about how we will BE in this life, to look outward & see how we are connected in the world. I truly appreciate your words and insight.
    2513 days ago
    Great blog! We could all take a lesson from you on letting go of the worrying about the weight on the scale.
    2513 days ago
    Just love this post. Very inspiring and exactly where I'd like to be! Thank you for sharing this.
    2513 days ago
    What a wonderful, penetrating blog! To be able to see beyond mere numbers a vision of LIFE; thank you so much.
    2513 days ago
    Awesome blog - perspective at its best. Thanks for sharing.
    2513 days ago
    WOW! WOW! WOW!! THank you! This was seriously one of the most beautiful blogs I have read! Thank you for really putting LIFE into persepective!!
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    2513 days ago
    Great blog! I'm thinking about losing the scale, too. :)
    2513 days ago
    Your attitude is inspiring! Thank you for sharing!
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