Thursday, September 02, 2010
As some of you know I have had a rough twelve months and took some time off of SP to find my way again. Well I don't know that I found my way, but I have found more time. Time that I need to dedicate to myself.
When my life went to heck I threw myself into some non-profit work that I loved. However since I can't ever seem to say no to anything I went from doing odds and ends for them to working 40-50 hours a week for them on top of my paying 40 hour a week job. Along with that came stress, bad eating, no time for exercise, no time for anything really. For awhile it was all good, it's easy to not think about your life or how you are treating your body when you are that busy. A comment from my mom about never being able to get in touch with me finally brought me back to reality. I took a breath and realized that I was using all this work as a stop gap to keep myself from having to really deal with the bad things that had happened in my life. While I was breathing I realized that I had put on 25 lbs in the last 12 months; I had started smoking again; I was really, really tired; my entire body ached; and I couldn't remember the last time I had a good nights sleep.
So I cut back on my non-profit work to just a few hours a week, tossed all the "bad food" and dusted off my tennis shoes.
I've decided to start off slow and work upwards. Small goals for each week, no major long term thoughts so I don't get discouraged.
I've missed you my SP friends and can't wait to spend some time catching up!