Wednesday, September 01, 2010
I woke up this morning and it's raining so no 5a.m. walk before work. I don't know if I am just being hormonal or what but I just feel very down on myself.... disgusting, fat, ugly, unlovable, and pretty much just a big pile of gelatinous goo. I need to amp up my exercise routine as I have been VERY lazy and not pushing myself towards my goal. If I am not moving forward I am slipping backwards........ I am just a mess. My eating habits have been good and I have a wonderful support group of girlfriends ..... I need to find my motivation I am starting to feel lost again.
Ok another day of rain.... so no walk. The girls and I did 4miles last night but I miss my mornings. Today was better I just danced for 45 minutes high intensity no stopping. I am sweating like a pig and happier because of it. Now for some coffee to better control my inner beast. Hopefully today will be better then yesterday so far it looks as if it might. I have decided that exercise though I don't particularly like it... make me a better happier me.............