One of my Spark Teams (the fabulous, fierce and fantastic) Caramel Candy Cuties have decided to shake things up a bit by embarking on a 12 week challenge. Each week we're going to spice up our regular fitness routines by adding that week's special challenge. Part of the challenge is to post your before pic and starting measurements. Which for me is a huge deal. Not the before pic but the measurements.
If you look at my ticker you'll notice I don't have my weight on there...and its for a reason lol. I'm super uncomfy with the number always have been and until I reach that magical number I've set as my goal weight I most likely will remain that way. Which Ethan (who is giving me the side eye as I type this) keeps telling me is beyond ridiculous since technically I'm at a healthy weight now. And I realize that logically, but emotionally, I know I what I looked like at 135 and a size 5 and that's where I want to be again. (Ethan's side eye has turned into an eye roll and a shake of the head. ) I know what you're thinking...you're looking at my profile pic of me in that red dress and going...um, you look ok to me. Except it was (and still is) crazy tight and requires foundation garments galore to pull off. I'm talking two pairs of spanx, waist cincher, and a whole lot of prayer. I want to look like that without needing all the "extras". I used to live in dresses like that- just slip them on and go. I want that again. No Spanx, no girdle, no waist cincher just me in my dress. Which at this point, I can't do. And if I don't shake things up, it won't ever happen.
So, here's me biting the bullet and facing my insecurity about revealing my weight and my stats and refocusing myself and committing to reaching my goal.
GW: 145 ~ Challenging but attainable
Other goals: to get some more muscle definition in my arms and in my abs (which don't exist at the moment lol)
Hips: 40 (these bad boys REFUSE to leave)
Right Arm: 12
Left Arm: 12.5
Right Thigh: 25
Left Thigh: 26 (clearly my left side is on shenanigans)
And now for the dreaded "before" pics
And this is where I'm trying to...no GOING to get back to...this is me Valentine's of '04 (my youngest was almost a year old at this point so clearly I can't blame the weight gain on having babies LOL)
And here's me now (this was an impulse pic, sorry its such a mess. Just wanted to give you guys an idea of where I am in relation to where I want to be)
So this is me at the beginning of my 12 week challenge...hopefully by the end I will feel a little more secure and comfy in my own skin. For those of you who did the math, when i first joined SP I was about 200 pounds...and this was AFTER losing 23 pounds (it took almost a year to lose that since i was totally half-assed about it and had no clue what I was doing). So all total I've lost 66 pounds, but only 42 since joining SP. (lord did I just admit how big i was?) Its been a long road but I'm pretty proud of my progress. And people who haven't seen me in awhile are stunned by it. Like yesterday.
As part of my job every year I have to go out into the community and give speeches about dating and domestic violence...we pretty much hit the same places every year. This year when we presented at one of the colleges our liason was FLOORED by the change in my appearance. She actually asked if I'd gotten a lap band or something. I laughed and told her no...I'd gotten my butt up and put the burgers down.
Just to compare here's what I wore last year to give my speech (and this outfit was TIGHT on a sista too lol) and here's what I wore Monday.
So on that uplifting little note, we're gonna wrap this up, and I'm going to encourage all my fellow CCC's taking this challenge with me and all my fellow spark buddies enduring challenges of their own to keep on shining and keep on striving towards your goals. If you can conceive it, you can achieve it!