Tuesday, August 31, 2010
YEAH ive been doing me!! lol
I have been on a train going no where pertaining to my health!!
It started 4yrs ago when my grandmother passed!!!!
so here I am officially 5 sizes bigger.I'm not upset about it because I could c it!!!
but I say it was confirmed yesterday!!!
when my dr told me I was carrying 2 tractor trailers on my body....i didn't want to cry but I wanted to tell him I didn't ask u that LOL!!
i already knew because of the way my breathing becomes labored when I walk I no longer can dance for long periods of time...we all kno the signs!! theres no point getting of mad I kno what I have to do!
my stomach looks bloated..I NEVER HAD A BIG STOMACH..THE FAT ON MY BACK HAS RETURNED...MY SHOES ARE GETTING TIGHT...ALL THE SIGN WERE IN FRONT OF ME..I DIDN'T LISTEN!!!
but because of my shape I'm able to get by without people saying she's fast I just get I'm thick..but the truth is I'm fat for my height!!
let me say I'm not depressed!!
it has not affected my self esteem but just opened my eyes to tell me..i have to...
STEP MY GAME UP ITS TIME TO BACK CONTROL OF MY LIFE & HEALTH!
I did it b 4 and I will do it again..by any means necessary!
so toady was day 1 I prepared some meals got some fruit sO I will always have something with me..back to drinking water only crystal light if I want flavor...no more fried food no more of anything unhealthy
Im planning a trip next year for my 36 birthday to jamaica and I won't be this size.....
I love me no matter what size just not as happy with me...i won't allow the dr or devil to put me in the spirit of depression or being unhappy
I have the blood of JESUS ON ME I AM 1 of his!
most people would be sad if the dr told them they were at there heaviest weight ever that includes during before after pregnancy...but I have God ...things happen for a reason...i believe this time when I get back to where I was I will appreciate it more!
I am Gods child and I will do this....pray with me and for me!