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I am craving chocolate-translatio
n I am craving love!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Dear friends,

I love to pay attention to things as they occur in my life. To me there is no accident, especially when I tend to react intensely to an event that would otherwise be unincidental. Lately I cut off my coffee consumption, a product I used to soothe painfull emotions.

I have found myself indulging in french bread with butter (yummy!) and chocolate (equally yummy). I really have no issue with food, I have an issue with behaviour. When ever I catch myself in a somewhat compulsive behaviour, I stop and wonder: what's up girl? And often there is something bothering me and I am covering it up with food, expenses, thoughts, etc.

When I crave food, comfort foods that is, I know I am craving something that reaches alot deeper than my stomach. When I crave sweets I am really craving love. This year has been one for grieving. I dealt with much of it but some is left and is asking for my attention through chocolate's sweet tooth.

I truly believe that all the love I need is already there in my heart and in the divine surrounding me. I also believe that no one can love me as well as I can. Yet, it is difficult not to fall into the trap and start seeking love outside of myself. When I do that, I suffer and I start craving something, anything, to soothe the pain. The emtiness is unbearable, I want something to reconnect.

Fortunately, I have been tending my inner garden for a while and I recognize the signs before I get myself in trouble. I can make healthier choices and care for myself and meet my true needs that chocolate, although it is a delicious way to divert my attention, will never be able to.

This being said it is difficult to stay mindful of my true needs, it would be so easy to just give in. In the end though, I would not gain from it a bit. Every time I am able to be in alignment with my inner self, to overcome the pain appropriately I feel so rewarded. It is a small victory every time. When the next thing comes I know I am stronger and that I can address anything that is thrown my way.

Just sharing my thoughts in this blog generates joy, peace and a profound sense of being. As I have said before, my inner life is most precious to me. It is my sacred garden and it supports me always.

May your day be blessed with joy, peace and much light.
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    Nice blog !!!
    2727 days ago
    Here's a little poem that I wrote.
    Food is not my mother,

    Food is not my lover,
    I can't hide undercover,
    beneath my own blubber

    This is one of my favorite quotes.

    "Your heart can create any amount of love, not just for yourself, but for the whole world. Open your heart, open your magical kitchen, and refuse to walk around the world begging for love. In your heart is all the love you need." ~Don Miguel Ruiz~
    2728 days ago
    I read this today here:

    Stressed? Eat chocolate
    "Experts say that chocolate—particularly dark chocolate—may help reduce the stress hormones that are swarming in your body. In fact, a recent study by researchers in Switzerland, published in the Journal of Proteome Research, found that eating just a smidge of dark chocolate (about 1.4 ounces) has the power to lower the stress hormones cortisol and catecholamines in the body, reducing your anxiety..."

    I related so much to this article because I just went home for a visit and ate a lot of chocolate! LOL!
    Brightest of Blessings to you my dear one.
    2729 days ago
    Very very interesting. I wonder if I could substitute the word sex for love. I'm thinking that perhaps one of the reasons women in their 50s (me) gain weight is from a shortage in the sex life department.
    2729 days ago
  • PLSA62
    I really enjoyed your blog. I am trying to get to the point where I love myself. I've just recently had a break up with a man that I loved so dearly. Now once again I am alone. I wish I could be content being alone, but I guess I have to love the person that I am alone with. You are inspiring.
    2729 days ago
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