Sunday, August 29, 2010
Yay! Down 13# since I started the vlcd. My best progress on the hcg protocol yet! What I found the past few days was that I have issues with melba!~ toast that is. I did better with them out of the house. ONE is not enough.
What I did right was to bring dinner to work on Friday, just in case I didn't get out on time.....which was the case. I went back to the lounge between patients and zapped my fish, and had that with my tomatoes and balsamic vinegar. YUM. And when I finally got home at 9pm, I got out an orange to take back in with me......had that at 11pm, and felt pretty good for the rest of the night.
My life coach and I had a session yesterday, and we listed what I don't want to have happen vs what I DO want ...............that I don't want to backslide, regain again....which would leave me feeling out of control and a failure....that I don't want to feel invisible if I regain. That I don't want catty women talk at me when I succeed and regain my personal power! That I want to trust myself and my actions when I am slim and healthy. That I want to use food as purely sustenance and enjoy every bite, rather than needing it for protection, boredom relief, or stress relief. I want to buy skinny clothes and have them feel comfortable! And a piece of chocolate cake can be savored occasionally with no adverse effects! I want others to be impressed and inspired, and for me to be proud of my results and myself. And most importantly, I want whatever "holes" are still there to be fixed, so that they don't need ever again to be filled with food.