Saturday, August 28, 2010
I have not Blog'd in a while. Sometimes Life happens so fast and furious. I am sure it won't be the last time. I have been going through a "Life Storm" with my daughter. She left her husband on July 5th and her and her 2 son's "4 & 5 yr olds" are staying with me and my husband. Thats not that bad, its her husband and how he can has handled all of it. I feel like I am in a nightmare and can't wake up. I cannot understand why things have to be like they are. I was divorced from my daughters father and I decided early on that our relationship was no longer about us it was about our kids. You just have to realize that you have to focus on whats best for your children. And that its not always the best thing to stay together. What good does it do to let them see the fights and anger. I believe my daughter is trying to do the right things. I know that she has not always made the right choices. I also know that marriage is 2 people....and if one is overly controlling over the other that the other will feel like they are of no value. That is not a way to live. To me each person must commit to giving 100%....it is not a 50/50.....to me 50/50 means "half ass". You have to put your partner above yourself. Selfishness is destruction to individuals and relationships. I hate divorce....it is so very hard especially for the children....but sometimes staying in a bad relationship is worse.....I believe God knows this and will forgive. I truly love my daughter, both my grandson's and yes her husband. I pray for God's grace in there lives. I pray for acceptance and peace. This has been a very difficult time and I never dreamed that I would have to see my daughter go through this. But me going through my own divorce I know "this too shall pass". God knows all things and every heart and I pray for his answers in this all.
As far as my weight loss and fitness journey I have continued to lose a little and stay on track as much as my circumstances have allowed. I have not exersized like I was with the WII, but I have been walking with my other daughter once or twice a week.....we have been using this time as fitness and counseling time.
I am excited because I am in a size 8 now....when I started I was getting in 14's. So I am proud of myself even through all this stress that I have maintained. I have lost about 20 pounds since April of this year....Woohoo!
I continue to try and make good eating decisions and making this a true life perspective.
Well Happy Saturday to everyone!
Thanks for listening.