Wow this month has flown by. An apology to my fellow August challengers for being MIA. I have been experiencing a very nasty bit of vertigo and it laid me low. It seems to be improving a bit and at least I can stand without holding on to something.
I am shopping today for an outfit to wear to an evening wedding tomorrow. I absolutely dislike shopping so I have put it off to the last moment. In retrospect that was a poor decision because it has only increased my apprehension about going. It is basically a gathering of Wellfleet surfers and their families who are, without a question, in excellent shape. To many of them being fat is the ultimate sin. This particular time it is not a surf type wedding - at the beach with flip flops and sand blowing but a real posh affair. My wardrobe consists of jeans and tea shirts so I am really out of my element. To be honest I am really going to be out of my comfort zone. As my weight increased I found different reasons for no longer going to the beach so I have not seen many of these folks for quite a while. I don't want to be negative here but I am at my worst in large affairs with tons of people. I feel bombarded by all these vibes and not all of them are pleasant. Not that you all think I am certifiable (talk about bearing your soul) I guess it is time to dig deep, gather my confidence, and put on a smile. Growth is in the air!