First off, my levels:
Energy Level - 4 (1-5, 5 being high)
Sleep Quality - 5 (1-5, 5 being high) - woke up 15 minutes before my alarm though, wide awake
Sleep Quantity - 6.75 hours last night (total hours) - despite waking up earlier, I'm quite energized
Stress Level - 3 (1-5, 5 being high), this is pretty consistent
Hunger Level - 2.5 (1-5, 5 being very hungry)
Self-Esteem Level - 5 (1-5, 5 being high), still struttin' like a peacock about my inches lost. :-)
So, tonight I'm having...Fettucine Alfredo. Yikes. Now, this wasn't my choice, but it is my cousin's birthday and she wants just the girls to get together, so we are at my aunt's house. She decided on Fettucine Alfredo with Chicken. Is there ANYTHING about that that is a good choice? No. Except the chicken, but I think that is basically cancelled out by the word "Alfredo." Surprisingly, although it sounds good, because my aunt is a great cook and baker, I'm not overly excited about the prospect. I'm going to go to Yoga either tomorrow or Friday (in addition to this weekend) to make up for it. I already have planned to try and adjust the amount that I have as much as possible, having less Alfredo (1/2 c is what I'm estimating), and 1.5 cups pasta, then the chicken. I'm sure there will be some sort of dessert...and crap!!! I forgot about the salad beforehand! That isn't bad though, it's just cucumber and watermelon with lime juice (sounds so simple, but it is AMAZINGLY delicious! I will probably have some for lunch tomorrow).
Although I don't want to really have this tonight, because I'm nervous it will throw off my whole good-living (logically, I know one meal won't actually, but the possibility it at the back of my mind still!), I am not going to not eat it or make a big deal about it because my aunt is going to the trouble for my cousin's birthday. I'll just have less than I necessarily would normally (i.e., 3 servings stuffed down before I can even breathe
I've read before that you should tell people you are on a diet when going to their house so they can adjust, but I find this terribly rude. Luckily I haven't read that on SparkPeople, or I would probably stop using it. That is one of my pet peeves - people who end up picking at something or make a huge deal out of what someone went to the trouble of making, only because they haven't tried something or it isn't on their "diet." Not that I don't think people should adjust to their tastes, absolutely they should. If I make chicken marsala and they don't like mushrooms, no problem to not chop them up to small pieces and they can just eat around them. Or, tonight, my aunt is making shrimp for everyone else. I can't eat shrimp, and she offered to make that separately and make chicken for me. Even then though, I would have eaten around it. I actually ended up eating baby shrimps (and having a bit of a mild reaction to it--yes, stupid, but I'm crazy) when I visited family I didn't know very well because I didn't want to tell them that I wouldn't eat something of this wonderful meal they made (plus, they just kept filling up my wine glass so I was completely snockered by the end of dinner). I knew it wouldn't kill me to suck it up.
Ok, I'm just off topic. I just don't think that it should be a big deal to eat parsley (which is practically flavorless) mixed into something if you aren't allergic and just don't like "green stuff" (seriously, I had a friend who said this). Allergies, religious reasoning, strong aversion for some other reason (I won't eat pork, I don't know why, I just won't--no kind at all), fine, but just writing off all of something because you don't like the looks of it (does not apply to calf brains, haggis, liver, etc)?
Sorry if you do that, it is just one of those things that drives me nuts. Like nails on a chalkboard. Luckily the time that the parsley incident happened my other friend was there and he ended up eating about half the bowl of the stuff the parsley was in. It was impressive.
Back to the point...what was it again? Oh yeah, I'm having pasta tonight. Yikes! Wish me luck! I know I can resist, I just need to do it. I adjusted my other food, so I won't go over my maximum calories for the day (over my own personal maximum maybe, but not by too much), I'm just nervous about the carbohydrate influx that I'm not used to anymore.
In other news...is anyone else trying this Drink 2 Glasses of Water before a meal thing that is supposed to increase your weight loss? Did anyone else say, "Duh" when that study came out? I feel like any nutritionist I have talked to has said the same thing. I'm still making a concerted effort to do that for the next few weeks, and see if I feel any fuller, etc.
Also talked to my friend, who is a previously crazy-exerciser/dieter. She is also one of those annoying people who can eat 5000 calories every other day (and the regular 2000 the others) and only gain about 0.5 lbs in a month of that. She has the highest metabolism of any person I've ever known. Insane. She is an emotional eater though, and she has probably the same food mentality that I do--it's an addiction, even though I think we are addicted in different ways. I'm not a binger really. I cannot eat anywhere NEAR as much food as she can in one sitting. She could put away an entire cheesecake, 3/4 of a pizza, four colas, and nachos and not want to kill herself. I would, and not from guilt. My stomach would implode. It was good talking to her about how I've been doing. She goes on crazy diets (she did a low carb/no carb for four weeks last summer--while we were studying for the Bar Exam! She's insane sometimes--and lost about 12 lbs and got ripped, but she ate about 4000 calories a day and worked out 2x a day), and can be a crazy exerciser, but she is off that at the moment. She moved to Florida and has finally adjusted after about 10 months. She still exercises, but pretty lightly at the moment. Even though she is a size 2, I can somehow relate to her and she can relate to me about food. She's protective about my mom being crazy about my weight, because my mom just doesn't have an emotional attachment to food and my friend understands my emotional attachment to food, but she's a health nut too. She's an odd contradiction. It was nice talking to her about all of this, because she is easy to talk to about it and gets it completely. She is constructively supportive, someone to bounce ideas off of about things to do exercise and eating wise, and never critical at all.
Ok, I'm done. I've just rambled for ages now. Gotta finish up work so I can get to the gym before my pasta dinner!