Friday, August 13, 2010
it was suggested that I do a blog about the stuff my weight is affecting so that I can read it and reflect on why I am working toward a healthier lifestyle.
My current issues are:
have a hard time sitting in the Key Arena seats at the Storm games and because of that don't want to get up and participate in the audience yells and chants. (as well get up to let people pass in front of me)
my back aches when I walk a lot and I like to walk but the extra weight is really hurting lately.
I am so tired in the evenings that I fall asleep on the couch at about 8:30pm or it goes to the other extreme that I can't sleep at all.
I am so big again that I had to by bigger pants just so that I had something to wear.
My thighs rub together so much that I am in pain often in the groin area. (that is gross but it hurts!)
I have a belly crease that I hate.
I get winded more easily than I had been because I have not been exercising as much.
I depend on other people way to much to motivate me...but currently I have no motivation, because I am not doing the "right" things.
I don't like the way I look in the mirror.
I don't like the way I feel and the lack of energy I am experiencing.
I am not a good role model for my daughter in the healthy/body image aspect although I am trying to teach her what not to do when she gets older. So at least I am trying without hounding.
I let my husband influence my choices and I should stay strong in my decisions but when he says I sure could go for "fill in the temptation here" and it sound soooo good it is hard to say "NO! We are having FISH".
I have very low mileage and have been in the garage for quite a while again and that has to do with both myself and my husband not feeling healthy. (Julie that was for you) Makes me very SAD.
I am going to a great water park this weekend and I am concerned about my appearance. I know I will have fun and mostly won't care while I am there but I will not be taking a ton of pictures like I usually would (I am a picture JUNKIE) because of the way I look/feel.
I hate how my mind knows that I want to lose weight and be healthy but it still screams "BROWNIES" at me.
I go through shoes way quicker now because of all the weight they have to handle.
I am sure the list could go on and on and on but I will stop here because I think I could get really nit-picky and I don't need to do that to remind myself why I want to be healthier.