Monday, August 09, 2010
okay, itís not that i truly believe in any kind of personal magic with which one has been innately endowed. i think we make our own whatever-you-call-it: motivation, purpose, impetus Ö mojo. and iíve misplaced mine. hopefully temporarily.
first it was family issues, and then personal-life issues, and then my laptop eating yet another adapter, then grumpiness about SPís blackberry application. and i could go on but the point is made. iíve arranged different justifications roaming everywhere from the minute to the massive. all are relevant to my world and may be legitimate frustrations; but, of course, the extent to which i let them control my world and my mood is entirely up to me. this is no revelation.
iím really finding it difficult to stay enthusiastic. i have moments of enthusiasm, still itís not lasting. i feel like a sprinter trying to tackle a marathon. bursts of energy with an acute lack of planning. and iím getting overwhelmed. itís not like iím doing horribly. okay, itís totally like iím doing horribly. i stay under or at my calorie limit, but on crap, not on healthy choices. i exercise, but i havenít created any routine.
and looming in the midst of all this lassitude is Back to Schoolóa mere three weeks awayówhich means i very much need to get myself on track so that i can keep my son on his, too.
where is inspiration to be found? hopefully just around the corner. still i have a feeling i just need to give myself the proverbial swift kick and get moving!
any thoughts, ideas from SPers?