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Hardest week on record

Monday, August 09, 2010

My precious cousin, Adam, passed away on August 2nd, 2010. He was 32. He left behind a heartbroken family (including his 1 year old son, Noah), and many confused friends. He had a substance abuse problem, and an overdose is suspected.

I have spent the last 7 days eating and crying, crying and eating. My baby appears to be fine, but this has been a truly tragic, and stressful week for everyone who loved him. One of the hardest things to swallow has been that he will never meet the baby cousin he was SO excited about.

I'd really like to forget last week ever happened, but that's just not possible. Adam was a huge guy, with an even bigger heart, and my world seems smaller now that he's gone. He was practically a brother to me. My mom and his mom were close, his sister and I were close, and he and my brother were literally best friends from the time they could walk.

I can't put the anguish I feel for his mom, dad, sister, fiancee', and son into words. I keep thinking to myself, how is my aunt going to make it through the rest of her life, knowing that her son's life was tragically cut at LEAST 40 years short?

I'm going to have to get myself back on track this week. My goal was to not gain more than 15-20 lbs through my whole pregnancy, and I've gained that NOW, and I just started my 2nd trimester. Last week certainly did not help me any.
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  • v MORTICIAADDAMS
    I can so relate. My cousin, who was my best friend growing up, committed suicide at 40. I know your pain and loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
    2174 days ago
  • v VGIMLET
    I am so sorry for your loss.

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    2175 days ago
  • v PINKCASHMERE09
    I'm so sorry for your loss! I don't know you or your cousin, but I happened on this and wanted to at least say sorry - It's so hard to go through the loss of someone so close to you. Hang on to your family - it sounds like you have a close one - as well as your friends to help get you through this. Take care of yourself and your tiny one! Again, so sorry.
    2175 days ago
  • v OFFDREA
    I am so very sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathy and condolences to you and your family.
    Continue to take care of yourself for you and your baby.
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    2175 days ago
  • v NABDULSABOOR
    very sorry for your loss, and remember, that time will heal all wounds.
    2175 days ago
  • v SHADESI
    I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin. I'm glad that you and your baby are doing okay though.

    Last year, my first husband (10 yrs married, this was four years after our divorce) died as a result of his decades of alcoholism at the young age of 51. He missed the birth of his first grandchild by six months.

    I wrestled with so many emotions - grief over the loss, guilt that I couldn't help him more, etc. In the end, with the help of my wonderfully supportive husband, I was able to come to terms with it all. I had learn to celebrate the good moments of his life and let all the rest go. The tragedy of it still makes me cry occasionally (like right now) but I know that he is finally free of his demons too.

    I'll keep you all in my prayers, that you can find peace in this difficult time. Keep us posted on how you are doing, k?
    2175 days ago
  • v ALLTHNGSPOSSBLE
    I'm so sorry about your loss. I know you and your family will make it through this but it may take some time. Take the time that you need to mourn then move on. Let me know if I can help in any way.
    2175 days ago
  • v KRICKETTWO
    So very sorry! I lost my brother to a car accident when he was 25. My world never was the same. But, in some ways, I am better because of it. We never know what is around the next corner and because I learned this at a very young age, I knew that I needed to appreciate and cherish each moment. You will know what is truly important and make the most of your time with your loved ones. Especially this new baby! The very smallest of things will mean so much more to you now.

    Rest, heal and live your best life.
    2175 days ago
  • v TUBLADY
    Sorry about your loss. But life goes on and especially in your case you have a new life on the way. Take care of yourself and the new baby.
    Time will ease the pain that you feel now.
    My best to you and your family.
    2175 days ago
  • v TMACOOL
    Sorry for your loss. Keep the faith.
    2175 days ago
  • v PATTYKLAVER
    I am so sorry for your loss. It's hard to describe what this type of loss is like unless you've been through it. There are support groups that would help you - they helped me. We want you healthy for yourself and your babies. Good luck and best wishes.
    2175 days ago
  • v PATTYKLAVER
    I am so sorry for your loss. It's hard to describe what this type of loss is like unless you've been through it. There are support groups that would help you - they helped me. We want you healthy for yourself and your babies. Good luck and best wishes.
    2175 days ago
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