Life After Death
Friday, July 30, 2010
Yesterday was my three month post-op appointment from the two level cervical spine fusion I underwent in April of this year. I had to get x-rays again and see my surgeon. He says my neck looks GREAT and I'm clear to swim, do yoga (although some advanced poses are a permanent no-no) and work out as much as I want. At this point everything is set though the bone will continue to heal and grow up for about 4 more months. I doubt I'll ever do much headbanging or stage diving again but for the most part I'm returning to normality. I took this pic right before work yesterday.
My eyes look bright and there's no effort behind that smile for the first time in a year. I get finished with my shift at work and I'm ready to do something else. I still have tons of energy where before I could barely make it through work and once I finished I'd come home to collapse on the couch until bedtime. I've got a little fatigue in my neck, shoulder and upper arm muscles still that will likely get worse for a bit as I rebuild my strength there but I'm excited that I can be active again. I'm excited that I can clean my house, do laundry, play with our dogs, run errands, cook, dance and act silly again. Chris, my husband, and I were cleaning a few days ago and he commented on how good it was to see me dancing around and shaking my butt without even realizing it. I feel like I've come out of a fog. The mental and physical fatigue are disappearing more and more.
I'm a lucky one. This surgery doesn't work for everyone and there's a strong possibility I will need a repeat of it again years from now. I am definitely going to do everything within my power to improve my health as much as possible though and not take this body for granted anymore. The fact that I do feel like running tells me maybe I should.
I thank God every day for the graciousness and kindness of those close to me that helped out SO much before and after my surgery. I am here right now because of their love, encouragement and care. It was a long dark tunnel for awhile and I was ready to give up hope more than once. I'm glad I didn't. Precious doesn't begin to express what life is to me now. I'm done biding my time, I'm ready for the "L-I-V-I-N" to quote Matthew McConaughey.