Friday, July 30, 2010
Although all of the tools I need are right here, I have for the most part, avoided exercise & made poor eating choices.
I know I'm not thinking clearly because my actions are so obviously not helping me. So I've been working on fixing my thinking and figuring out what is behind my compulsive eating.
In reading Geneen Roth's latest book, I found a passage that hit home:
"Weight loss is the easy part; anytime you truly listen to your hunger and fullness, you lose weight. But...compulsive eating is basically a refusal to be fully alive... We live lives of deprivation. And when we can't stand it any longer, we binge."
I KNOW this is true. When I reach for junk food I know I am avoiding something I should be paying attention to & turning my back on myself. Right now I'm so out of touch with my real feelings that I neither know what I'm avoiding nor what I want to pursue.
I have hope though. I know I can do this even though I'm not sure how just yet. In the meantime I continue to show up here everday & that in itself is progress.