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Not According to Plan

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Sometimes, no matter how hard we try or how much we plan, we have one of those days where things just don't go exactly the way we expected.

Take today for example. This morning, I gave half of my lunch to a homeless man. Little did he know, I'm sure, just how important my lunch was to me. I don't even have to go into my "interesting" relationship with food - the fact that I somehow equate the items in my lunches to small pieces of my soul - to know that giving up anything out of that bag hurt just a little bit. It also hurt my plans for my day - my lunch items all carefully counted out to ensure that I meet my daily nutrient requirements and calorie intake. But he clearly needed the food, as he took it from me and immediately rushed away to stuff his mouth with my Frigo Light String Cheese. Not exactly what I had planned for my day, but not to worry because I still know I'm on track for breakfast.

Every Thursday I get a ham, egg & cheese breakfast sandwich and fresh brewed iced tea from Starbucks. I have dreams about this sandwich. I can taste it the minute I roll out of bed with it's doughy, Brioche bun and sweet, salty ham and cheese. My friendly, neighbourhood Starbucks has been out of these little babies all week. Their regular morning order has been hijacked this week and none of the supervisors can figure out what's going on (I get the daily dish from them every morning). But today - TODAY, they were sure that their order was arriving as planned. Not the case. They were out of sandwiches. ALL sandwiches. I couldn't even switch up my order and get an egg and sausage muffin. I about cried at the counter...I hadn't eaten before I left home, so now I was forced to make a decision between going somewhere else (McDonald's is about the only other breakfast option in my neighbourhood) or ordering something else from that glass case of ooey, gooey, decadent, sugary DEATH to my daily nutrition tracker. I opted for a plain bagel (they didn't have any multigrain left) and cream cheese (regular, because they no longer carry light). Ugh. This day is for the dogs. Not enough protein this morning and an hour after my bagel, my stomach is rumbling for the half of the lunch that I have left.

Can I hold out hope that dinner might be fairly normal? Not a chance. I got a last minute "change of plans" email yesterday from the director of my new show. We're meeting the cast at the Art Institute tonight to spend some quality time with the painting on which our musical is based (we're doing 'Sunday In The Park With George' which is loosely based on the life of the painter Georges Seurat while he painted his pointillist masterpiece "A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte"). Afterward - drinks and dinner at some place downtown. Oh joy, oh bliss - an unexpected weekly expense for my pocketbook AND my meal plan. It's just not in the cards - today I am not going to win.

But I'm not giving up! I'm only one meal in to my day. I still have half a lunch. And the extra calories saved from my donation to the poor this morning will allow me a beverage with dinner if I so choose. I'll opt for whatever is healthy on the menu and all will not be lost. I can save this pimple of a day! It's just going to take a little cover-up action and no one will ever know. So it wasn't part of the plan, but this is just how I'm gonna have to roll. And I can dig that.

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    So maybe it wasn't such a great day food-wise. But you showed kindness to another human being, and you should feel really good about yourself and the choice you made. Life is about so much more than just food, and today you nourished your soul--and someone else's. Good for you!
    2787 days ago
    If every day went according to plan, life just wouldn't be interesting, would it? Tomorrow is another day, grasshopper! You are very gracious and kind to have shared with someone who clearly needed help. And dinner out tonight? I'm SURE you came through with flying colors...let us know how things went!

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    2788 days ago
    I'm sorry your morning went so bad but you did a good thing for the homeless man. I can't believe such a name brand chain could have so many problems with menu items. One thing being a Spark person teaches you is to move on to the next plan.
    2788 days ago
    Today is not lost, ya know. The knowledge you've gained can be used. Set up a Plan B in case Starbucks never figures out how to get their sandwiches. As an aside,I don't get some restaurants, the Subway in my town last summer ran out of bread on Sunday and had a sign posted "We will have some again on Wednesday".

    Drink water if you can (and want to). (Yeah I understand the social thing)

    2788 days ago
  • WYND10
    Sharing with a homeless person is admirable. I have no doubt you are going to come through today, despite the setbacks, with flying colors. Remember, you are a Rock Star! You can do it!
    2788 days ago
    You did a good thing for someone else. It'll all come back to you. I heard that Starbucks has oatmeal with walnuts and cinnamon mixed in that supposed to be pretty good nutritionally. I've never been to Starbucks so haven't tried it myself.
    2788 days ago
    That's wonderful that you shared your lunch... that has it's own rewards!! For that you go have that drink.... and enjoy it for me lol :)
    2788 days ago
    It's just one day, tomorrows another one!
    2788 days ago
    God bless you for helping a poor homeless person out with your meal-that is so much kinder than alot of people would have done! That says to me that you are the kind of person who always puts others first, and as hard as it was for you, you will be better because of it! We can do this, and even if the road is not straight and predictable, we will stay on track and prevail! Normandy
    2788 days ago
    You are fabulous! I love that you shared your lunch with a person who was in need - not many folks would do that. I can't wait to hear how the day ends ... your positive attitude and won't give up attitude will carry you further than letting the day's bumps in the road defeat you.
    2788 days ago
    Stay Strong! It wont be easy, I can relate to feeling like your lunch is little parts of your soul I often feel that way about all the food that I buy and have to remind myself when my partner eats the protein bar that was in the cupboard it wasnt just mine. Good for you for sharing your lunch with someone who needed it. Keep up the good work.
    2788 days ago
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