Lost at sea......
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Do you ever have those days were you are just going through the motions? Days were you start out with positive thinking, you start out with a plan of attack for the day and then a massive wave comes and kicks you off your surf board and the current tries to bring you under and tows you back out to sea. That is the way I feel today. On top of it I feel like I am experiencing the movie “Groundhogs Day” you know where Bill Murray keeps waking up in the same time repeating the same day. I’m not going to go into the exact nature of my Groundhog’s Day because it is a very personal matter and I am in hopes I don’t offend anyone by not displaying it. But I will say because of this I almost get reminded daily of my Groundhog’s Day and if not daily at least it pops back into our lives every so often. I’m somewhat tired of this re-occurring Groundhog’s Day of being reminded daily, weekly, monthly. I take responsibility in this nightmare but on the flip side this other main character in the movie needs to as well.
The question is do we have a responsibility to make others happy? Do we have a responsibility to build the others self-esteem? To be re-assuring, etc? At what point does this person take the words or actions you bestow on them and grow. At what point does that person take the responsibility to bring them out of the black hole they can’t seem to get out of? Now I’m not saying we don’t all have our pity party days but for it to be a re-occurring daily can and does bring total despair onto others. The whole world is against them, or at least that is what it seems to this person. Nothing ever goes right, nothing is ever good enough or so it seems. Failure is the key word of the day. No smiles, no joy, no spark in their eyes. Harsh words more than kind words if any words at all.
I know this might not make sense to you but it is words that I needed to get down. I’m at a loss of how we can move forward, recover and grow if this Groundhog’s Day keeps re-occurring. If this person does not come up out of the current long enough to take a breath we will continue to be lost at sea……..I don’t know if I want to be lost any more, it doesn’t seem fair but then again I’m bounded.