I've been through a lot of emotions in the last few weeks, since I have been unemployed. I don't feel "special" or unique, because I know there are a lot of people unemployed right now, and many worse off than I am. But that doesn't negate the emotions that go along with it.
This morning, I had the pleasure of reading this article: www.sparkpeople.com/reso
, which I found to be inspirational. Also of great help has been a couple of workshops that I have attended at our local "Workforce Solutions" Center. That's basically the state employment center. They just try to put a positive spin on the name.
They have contracted with a healthcare company to come in and give some workshops on stress management and career transition. The one on stress management last week was very helpful. I knew I needed something like that, just because of the many moods I was finding myself in on a daily basis. Just like the article above described, I find myself having really good days where I am up emotionally. But then the very next day could be the total opposite. And it doesn't seem to be totally related to the job search. Some days that I have a relatively productive day, job-hunt-wise, turn out to be downers, and for no apparent reason.
There have been multiple times where I have felt like bursting into tears for no reason at all, which is a sign of either depression or pregnancy. Pretty sure I'm not pregnant. That would be groundbreaking news. All of this, I'm sure, is related to the fact that I'm jobless.
Yesterday, I attended another session with the same person that was related to career transition, but it was more of a "support group" format. We picked a topic out of a handful of cards. The topic was "pressures." There was one other person there yesterday, so we had a nice discussion on what types of pressures we were experiencing, due to our jobless state. And it was very helpful. It was kind of like going to a therapy session, except it was free (well....except that our tax dollars pay for it).
What's the point of all this? I guess to say that the article I linked to is absolutely right in the fact that the days will vary. I have good days and bad days. Fortunately, at this point, I think I have more good ones. But I won't give up. And when those bad days come along, I will deal with them the best I know how. My family has been very supportive. In this I am very blessed. That helps a lot. It also helps that I seem to be able to identify when I'm not having a good day. That helps me develop strategies along the way to try to deal with that.
In the middle of all of this, I now have this community of SparkPeople to help motivate me. This helps in multiple ways. One is that there are people a lot like me out there, working to create a better self, a healthier person. We are all determined to make it work, a little bit at a time. So the motivation is high. I guarantee that if I posted anything that even sounded like I was about to give up, I would receive dozens of encouraging responses! And I would do the same for anyone else, as well.
So I will look those bad days right in the face and refuse to give up.
Grace and peace, friends.