Sunday, July 25, 2010
This has to be the worst weekend I have had in a very long time. It was a weekend of immobility due to extreme back pain, and a weekend of unsatisfactory eating. Oh I ate all the right things but I wanted something else. Having said that I didn't really WANT to eat anything that I would consider to be 'unhealthy'. I have 2 large packets of bourbon biscuits that don't belong to me and the number of times they tried to entice me to eat them was incredible. It didn't matter where I put them they were calling to me....."go on, you know you want to" and "just one won't hurt" and "just smell that rich chocolate filling and those crispy chocolate biscuits". They just wouldn't stop! "Eat me, eat me" they called but I resisted every time.
I have had my water as usual but I feel quite bloated. I wonder if it's because I haven't exercised and my body is retaining the fluid. I have had a lot of Tramadol for pain relief which also makes me constipated so my body feels sluggish.
I haven't had any pain relief since the early hours of this morning and I don't intend to take anymore. Keeping fingers crossed the rest I have had today and ice packs to my back has helped with the pain and I am going to bed relieved that the weekend is over. ( Weekends make me acutely aware of my aloneness) I am looking forward to a new, more normal week where I hope to be rid of this silly "WANT" of sweet stuff. I will be able to occupy my time with careful housework and a gentle stroll around the block. I will get on the bike for just 2 x 10 mins and build up to 2 x 20 mins over the week.