Saturday, July 24, 2010
I haven't felt right since the Half Marathon. My energy feels sapped, getting up in the morning is nearly impossible, and I hardly even enjoy going out for a run. I've started my official marathon training with Hal Higdon's Novice Supreme, and am now into week 3. I can barely motivate enough to get through a 3 mile run. I skip runs, put them off, and am doing no cross training. In my favor, I have incorporated a couple days of hills and sprints on the smaller mileage days. I'm now considering changing to John Bingham's training, because it seems more...technical I guess is the word. I'm really looking to have a better time than predicted, and it seems Bingham's may help me with a few speed drills.
Right now the biggest challenge is just getting off my ass. I literally just want to sleep instead of run, all the time.
I wonder if this is post race let down I have read about.
I wonder how long it will last.
I wonder if motivation will come naturally.
I wish I had someone with experience to talk to about this.
I have to trust that this is a process, and it will work itself out.
I am worried I can't do it.
I feel like I'm trapped in a cage of my own making, and I'm too lazy to find the key.