Thursday, July 22, 2010
So I have found a way to get cardio in. They have a kickboxing class starting next month that will take place every Monday and Wednesday. Its only $36 a month which I feel isnt to bad. I really want to start something now. But it doesnt start till the first week of August. Im hoping it will be something I enjoy doing. Im planning on doing that for a few month till I am phyically more fit then I would like to add pole dancing. Hahaha, sounds funny but sounds fun too!! Its more expensive and I wonder if I will be able to afford it. I have low self esteem and dont EVER feel sexy. Maybe it will help. :)
I also am so proud I made it through week one!! And I lost 4 lbs!!!! Im hoping I can continue this.
So today there has been some things Im upset about. My children dad is kind of selfish. We had a counseling session scheduled for yesterday (Imago Therpy) but he told me he didnt want to go and that he couldn't afford it. Now to today. I just taled to him on the phone and he wants to fly to Chicago next weekend to hang out with a friend while his son graduates boot camp. Im very hurt for two reasons. 1. He just told me the day before he didnt have money. 2. While I was with him I have always tried to go on little weekend trips. But he said we could never afford it. So we never did anything as a family. He still confusses me. He says he loves me so much and wants me to move back in. But at the same time if you loved someone so much wouldn't you try and make thing better between us? I just dont get it. Im hurting inside so much. :(