Thursday, July 22, 2010
So, my healthy BMI = 185, buuut. That is what I weighed when I was 13. I don't think I want to be that size, but I will see what I look like and feel like at 200 lbs ... actually, I would really like to at least break 200. So, 13 lbs to go, LOL.
I am feeling great, though. I have so much energy for my girls, and other than a few days of the month (you know what I mean, ladies!), I am getting out of a lazy funk that I don't even know HOW I got into and I am finding it's not even a matter of "keeping up" with housework anymore... well, most of the time :P
And unlike other times where I made one bad food choice (high sugar, or high fat) and thought "screw it" the next day and went back up five lbs in a matter of days ... I am plugging forward and making sure that I don't derail myself! I do NOT know when I last weighed even this weight, I'm pretty sure it's been at *least* 7-8 years; I mean, I was 240 lbs when I got married - I wonder if I'd even be able to wear my wedding dress now! :D
I just have to remember to keep up my exercise, because when that drops out of the picture, so does my energy, and I canNOT lose this momentum!
But I don't want to make it solely about 'good eating' and exercise - even though that's huge - because I am, foremost, a believer in Jesus Christ. And I think that there's a point to be made for self-control (a fruit of the spirit!) and the way that I have approached eating in the past. Are we supposed to do anything else "just because we want to" or because we enjoy it? It's not just a matter of "everything in moderation", but the simple facts: when I am healthier, my mind is clearer, I have more energy, I get more things done, I canbe someone of impact in the Kingdom of God! I am not dealing with things like weight and lack of energy slowing me down; I have more presence of mind to be HERE for my girls, to teach them how to be women of God than if I remained an overweight, lazy mother who barely gets the minimum done. What will that teach them?
Thank you, God, for your provision, and for this chance to be the girl who used to dance round and round for you.