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Like a zombie

Thursday, July 22, 2010

AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
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I AM SO READY TO PULL MY HAIR OUT! NOTHING HELPS TO RELIEVE THIS PRESSURE/PAIN! I've tried extra strength MIDOL Aleve with 2 cups of caffine this morning and still no relief!
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Well yesterday I was too hot and it wasn't hot here It made me feel chlostrophobic so I put all the fans on plus the AC When Walt came in he started shutting everything off on me! I had cooled down so thuoght I'd be alright but it wasn't ten minutes later and it was the same thing all over again so we turned the ceiling fan on at least.
Today he is off to Edmonton so I won't see him until tonight. I've got so many things that need to be done and I just don't have any ambition to do it today.
I met with my nutritionist, had blood work done, mowed the grass; at least I got 40 minutes of cardio in. but I need to be doing so much more but this pain and pressure is just dragging me down physically, emotionlly. I don't feel like doing a dang thing so I sit like a zombie here tapping at the keys.
I've had so much thrown at me this week that I'm ready to deck the next person who even looks at me the wrong way today. I'm irritible, agitated, and overwhelmed with being bluer than blue. The phone rings and I deliberately hang up on everyone just because I can. I just want to be LEFT ALONE! Physchologically, right now I'll tell everyone and anyone where to go and how to get there real fast! I'll chew "you" up and spit "you" out today. I have absolutely no patience none, nadda today. I'm just feeling so angry today! And for what? I have no flippin' idea!
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MINORCANLDY 7/23/2010 7:23AM

    Well, Buzz Saw Sally... I hope today finds you brighter :) LOL

We ALL HAVE THOSE DAYS! you aren't alone there buddy... Does that help when you feel like you could eat a saw blade and spit out nails? Heck no... But, it's more or less "normal". Not sure what "normal" is really defined as yet. It keeps changing depending on environments and elements surrounding humans.

And on those days, I just say (well no matter what I actually say cuz it's not nice- fkit) and keep moving in a direction that feels even a little bit better.

Sometimes if you are just M I S E R A B L E take a few moments to yourself and say.."What would FEEL better here".. and endulge that sensaion. Why push when you feel like KA-KA?

Hello? RELAX woman! Yes, I'm preaching to myself too...


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ROTTLADY 7/22/2010 5:19PM

    Hope your day gets brighter and your mood stabilizes and you are happy.

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TX.PATRICIA 7/22/2010 2:33PM

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