Many of you see me as a positive and kind cheerleader and I am. What you haven't seen yet is me, reincarnate Lara Croft with locs. The longer you know me, the sooner you are to discover that I'm not a blow-sunshine-up-your-backside kind of girl. Let me explain. I've made so many mistakes and restarts in my life, I nick-named myself the crash and burn queen. Well you don't survive your own self-destruction by remaining in your dysfunction. At some point you have to answer the question, “Do you want to live or die”? At some point you have to ask yourself, “Seriously, just when are you going to get your sh*t together”? (For what it's worth, when I swear, I'm really ticked off.) I say all this to say, that one of the lessons my father instilled in me was to fess up when I was wrong. Don't make excuses. When you're wrong and you know you're wrong say you're wrong and you're okay with it or say it's not okay and that you'll change it. How you change it may be a struggle, but there is no waffling about your commitment or refusal. Make a decision.
Some things really bothered me growing up like watching both my aunts fail to get their diabetes under control. At the time, I didn't draw any correlations between their behavior and the behavior of other relatives in our families who were addicts. Stay with me. For me, both my drug and drinking family members were doing the same thing my aunts were: slowly killing themselves a day at a time. I really wish those of us who overeat would seriously treat our obesity like cancer or addiction. It's not an issue you can deal with when it's convenient. Obesity kills.
So when you ask me if I'm interested or committed to getting my weight under control, I'm fessing up. I'm going to answer the same way I answered my therapist eighteen years ago when he asked me, “Do you want to live or do you want to die?”
I want to live **** t! I didn't look back then. Not looking back now.
Decide that you will always be committed to your weight loss, not just
interested. Write a declaration about your new commitment.
I am committed to living a whole and purposeful life. That means living a healthy lifestyle. It means honoring and caring for my body as the temple it is. It means being well so I can contribute to my family, my community and our world.
Describe how you will stick with your program no matter what:
I will consciously decide what I put into my body.
I will exercise daily to rejuvenate and care for my body.
I will take time each day to be still and meditate.
I will forgive myself when I pause in program; I will not linger on pause. I'll acknowledge the pause and move on.
I will write. I will record what I think and what I feel so I can hold me accountable to myself.
Do at least one thing today that demonstrates you are truly
committed. For example, take a walk or eat your vegetables – no matter what. Then write down your action so you can celebrate it.
This morning I rose early. Turned on my meditation music and enjoyed the peacefulness of the morning.