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When I get bored, I get stupid


Sunday, July 18, 2010

I must keep myself occupied. I've been a little manic lately. I'm slowly getting my place together. The new painting I did looks great over the fireplace and really enlivens the living room. Socially I have been busier than I have been in years. Still no dates. But I have a feeling that will not be so for long.

I have never really dated. Now having said that, I just ended a relationship that was on and off for several years. Of course, we dated but we got serious pretty quickly. With the exception of him, I have never really been asked on a date. How does that work? How in the world do people get together? It would be nice to feel sexy and smart and have someone who is NOT weird or unstable or lecherous, etc. interested in me. It would be great to have dating fun. Must stay focused on continuing to do things I enjoy and keep making friends. But dating ... Please. Nobody say they met the love of their life when they weren't looking for them. It's like saying "Your so fat but you have a pretty face." True or not we've heard it before and it does not need to be repeated.

So where does the boredom come in? Not so much boredom but anxiety. The anxiety is not just or so much the dating stuff. Just general work and all stuff. I have been eating more than usual. I think it is probably a combination of anxiety and dehydration. I'm still keeping kosher so today I had eight fish sticks, peas, pickled beets, a Skinny Cow chocolate ice cream bar, a grape juice bar, a chocolate pudding cup with whipped cream, some cherry white cheddar cheese, three crackers and 10 cherries. This in addition to lemonade, apple juice and a cup of hot tea. Seeing it all listed it looks like an odd combination of foods. Yesterday I had seven slices of pizza with mushrooms and black olives along with three! Mountain Dews. That was what ate all day. And played Age of Empires III and watched The Space Giants. Yesterday I hibernated in my geek cave. :')

Tonight I did some push ups, a couple of Yoga poses and then lay on my back staring up at the ceiling while stretching (sort of). I seem like I'm trying to slide into something funky and that is NOT okay.

I think I might like a steak. Eating meat is kind of chore because I avoid dairy on days I eat meat. So I mostly don't eat meat.

Maybe a boiled egg will do.

Maybe its late and I should go to bed. Because lack of proper sleep can lead to depression and overeating; two things I don't want.

Just have to stay focused on loosing 20 pounds by September and getting to the 250s by Fall. Ah, Fall. Your cool weather and stylish outfits I adore.

Wish me luck on the dating, dieting, work, family, friend-making, having fun fronts. I wish you all the same. ;')
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SASSISPRING 7/19/2010 12:45PM

    Okay I won't tell you that you'll meet someone when you least expect it, I'll just share that I did. I met him online playing cribbage and neither of us were looking for a partner. We enjoyed playing cards, got to talking on the phone, led to a trip together and we had 2 great years. I can't say that I have actually been asked out, well there was one time by a guy back in my twenties but it didn't work out. Usually I just met the guy through friends or living in a mutual area/mutual connections and we "fall" into going out. I guess what I'm saying is don't overthink it. Just get out, do your thing and it'll lead to meeting folks which leads into meeting more folks and stuff can happen. Go to MeetUps (search google for local MeetUps). Volunteer. Join a class. Do things for yourself and the rest will fall into place. Good luck with it all. :)

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KKLENNERT809 7/19/2010 12:05AM

    Try to find yourself some hobbies-something you enjoy doing so you won't get bored. Boredom does lead to overeating..........Good luck on all other areas you have addressed. Get out of your Geek cave and make some new friends. Other people can be very stimulating and influencing on a positive note. Have a great week!

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MAVBLOGS 7/18/2010 11:19PM

    Hello, I enjoyed reading your blog=) I agree, boredom can lead to overeating, so when I get bored and the opportunity presents itself....I go to sleep!!! LOL I always say, when I'm sleepin', I ain't eatin'!

Good luck in all you do=)

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