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Saturday, July 17, 2010


Holding myself back
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PERSIGABBI 7/20/2010 1:25PM

    OMG. I watched this & started crying because I SWEAR you are saying EVERYTHING that I feel also! I haven't struggled my whole life with weight too. You lost 100 lbs! amazing! I've lost about 40 lbs & have kept that off, but getting to my goal has been very hard. I never really knew how to relate to food and was never taught the proper balance. For ME, I think, 'if I succeed' and hit my goal, for me to not gain the weight back I think I might have to focus on calories for the rest of my life and stay in that daily range so I don't gain it back. Of course i have succeeded to lose all my weight yet, but so far since I started looking at calories, and seeing the numbers, I have not WANTED to eat past that. Cuz if it's saying I had enough calories for the day, then I'm accepting that= so far. If I am still hungry, I'll have another little something. But honestly I think I'll have to stay in my allowed calorie range for life because I know ME, and I know that if I abandon that, I'll put it all back on & maybe then some.

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SURRIA 7/17/2010 2:47PM

    You know, I just saw this blog and I have to tell you that I am going through the exact issues. I broke down crying last night because I just wanted to binge on a bag of potato chips and some chocolate. It was difficult and I did give in a bit but... I didn't give up.

Thank you for sharing. It means the world to me that I am not the only one going through these kinds of things.

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CHANGING4ME49 7/17/2010 2:26PM

    Thank you for sharing your feelings. I know first hand just how hard that was to do. I have been battling my weight for years. I allowed myself to balloon up to 340 lbs. When my grandson was born 3 years ago it HIT me that if I didn't start addressing my weight as well as my addiction and compulsiveness with food, I wouldn't live to see him grow up. So I began to make some positive changes and lost 92 lbs. Unfortunately my life turned tipsy-topsy this year and I used that as an EXCUSE to start eating unhealthy again. I have gained back 24 pounds. I realize now the life style changes I was trying to make was only a half-hearted attempt and I really didn't take the whole "Lifestyle approach" as seriously as I should have. I now know that it means "now and for always, in good times and in bad". In other words regardless of what is happening in my lives at any given time, I must make the decision to BE GOOD to myself every single day. I must decide to eat healthier, lighter, exercise and take care of ME every day. No one else is going to come along and do this for me. It is TOTALLY up to ME. I also have learned this past few months that I need to STOP making excuses. My weight and how I got to this size is no one's fault but MINE. All the negative stuff that goes on in my life is not the cause of me eating too much. I AM! I CHOOSE to put the food in my month. I CHOOSE not to exercise. I CHOOSE to get upset, depressed, emotional and RUN screaming for food. IT is all MY CHOICE!! I have chosen to use food as a source of comfort all these years and GUESS WHAT I CAN also CHOOSE not to!! The POWER is in ME! And it's in YOU TOO!!!

You CAN do this just like I CAN. One day at a time and if need be one hour at a time, day in and day out. NO EXCUSES!! Instead of saying YOU CAN'T, start replacing that with YOU CAN. You'll be surprised at how much power those two words hold. The power to overcome the addiction, compulsiveness, emotional attachment to food, excess weight, lack of self esteem and control is in YOU and it's in ME. It's in EACH and EVERY ONE of us. We just have to MAKE the CHOICE to use it!!
Good Luck and Best Wishes. emoticon emoticon

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GEKKO1 7/17/2010 11:17AM

    You know what? You took one of the largest steps to getting your life back on track with nutrition. That step, was admitting that the problematic issue is yourself. This is the first and most difficult step. Most others want to blame a situation, or work, or kids, or time, or whatever they can wrap their mind around., However, you know the issue is yourself. Kudos, you're going to be just fine!

Now, where do you go from here? Well, you go to the next day! From there, you move to the next, and so-on. You move from one day to the next, but making very small changes in your nutrition.

Ordinaryme, mentions you drink Mountain Dew (Caffeine Monster) and you smoke (Nicotine Monster). You can replace one bottle of Mountain Dew with one bottle of water for a week. Then the next week, replace two bottles of Mountain Dew with two bottles of water. Slow steps! Because caffeine is an addiction, you will have to take it slow and easy to ween yourself off or down from the amount you take in. Smoking, another addiction, I wish I could help you with. Everyone I know though, that quit smoking, quit "Cold Turkey." I take that back, my mother-in-law quit by using the patch. Anyway, I have heard that food tastes better after you quit smoking.

You can do this, because you have before. You're just fighting some serious addictions. Stop talking your boyfriend into going out to eat, stay in. If you need to go out, look up nutritional information of the restaurant, if they have such information listed. I know Subway, Schlotzky's, Chili's, Burger King, and others have this information available. Places like Chili's and Applebee's actually have menu's with healthy low calorie choices, that I might add are delicious, I've tried them.

Making this change does mean giving up some things, food wise, but that's what cheat days are for. Yes, I have cheat days. But I will never go back to my old ways. This new change has me feeling better than I have in a long time and I like it.

I know this is long and I'm sorry! Just take it slow, take it easy, and do it! You have support anytime you need it.

You've done this once and you're going to do it again! Now, step around yourself and move forward!

Smiles,

Kevi
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MOUNTAINMERMAID 7/17/2010 11:00AM

    Thank You for sharing!
Start with Baby Steps, try to Change just 1 Thing at a time.
Drink Water
Stay Within Your Calorie Range
You Already Like to Exercise so Keep It Up!
Stay Connected with Positive People
You are a Smart, Attractive, Young Woman, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!
GO GET 'EM!!!!!!!!!
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JESSASAURUSFLEX 7/17/2010 9:48AM

    I know what you mean, totally...
I tried for years and years and years to lose weight.... and nothing ever clicked.
when I can here, something was different.... and for whatever reason, I felt enabled, empowered, and on top of my life for once.

Don't get me wrong... I still have a fast food item once a week.. last week it was a burrito, this week it was a whopper with no cheese and no mayo....

My advice would be to start out small... I know you smoke, and tried to do everything at once... Focus on one thing and try and master it.

I know your mountain dew is an issue... and I know diet isn't you cup of tea... but once you switch, and STAY you cannot tell the different. Go for one week, or even if one week feels too much.. 3 days with no mountain dew... The more you push yourself and succeed, the better you will do..

I knowwww how hard it is... and being someone who was never a normal size.. even as a kid, I get the whole mentality.. But you have to take control babe. You can do it... you know you can do it. You said that you can handle the exercise... Then maybe take baby steps with your nutrition, but work your BUTT off all week and burn tons of calories a day... Work the system..

You have people here to lean on, and fight for you....
My heart goes out to you cause I know just right where you are at.

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ANGELICACAT 7/17/2010 4:47AM

    I know exactly what you mean... It is a lifestyle and it cant change. Give in to it. Healthy food is good and once you get into to it, food will be fun again. Good for you that the exercise is not a problem. For most people, that is the hard part. Keep it up. Take a day at a time and don't get down on bad days. Tomorrow will be better.

P.S. You made me laugh with the frisky old men.

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