Saturday, July 17, 2010
Tonight was kind of tough. I am so grateful (glad, thrilled ...) that I am loosing weight. The down side is that I think I look a little older because I am loosing weight from my face as well.
I'm sure (and praying) that it's just a matter of my skin's elasticity catching up. I have lost 30 pounds in less than two months ...15 of it within approximately two weeks.
So ...tonight I tried to take some pictures of myself for a personal ad and well ... I wasn't thrilled with any of them. Then I switched to a top I was more comfortable in (i.e. black instead of the bright colors that supposedly one is supposed to wear because supposedly men like bright colors ...as if they're toddlers.) Then the photos were okay.
Most of what made tonight tough is relationship, or lack of relationship, stuff and not weight-related stuff. Going out with some new people was kind of a fizzle and thus started the pity and dissatisfaction festival.
Actually, the kick off for the festival was two days ago when I found myself traveling to a place I didn't want to got to (for work) and doing things I was not thrilled about doing. It wasn't that bad. At least I am employed and have a job (that's actually a pretty cool one) to travel to places I don't won't to go to for. I am looking forward to Fall. I will loose 20 additional pounds by then and I have clothes to look forward to. I'd better start exercising before everything's hanging all over the place and making me look older.