Learning to be healthy. Why is it so hard? I know habits are hard to break, like quitting smoking, eating is just as bad. I can do well for a month or two and then I find myself right down the same road again. My choices are knowingly detrimental, yet I think it'll just be this one time.....and then ten times later, I've gained weight. What is it that happens to some people where they completely turn their life around!?
I've noticed that those people that lose a drastic amount of weight and then keep it off have made it an everyday way of life. It has to be a lifestyle change. What triggered them to finally do it!? Was it the right person saying the right thing at the right time? Was it them being tired of being overweight? Did they not fit in the seat on the airplane? Did someone make a comment about their weight? I guess you have to be REALLY uncomfortable in your skin, or understandably, want to do it for someone else (like your kids). I really want it, for me, and for my wedding, yet I am still allowing myself to make some bad decisions. Now I know that we have a meal or a day where we cheat, but we keep on trucking. One day is not everyday.
I'm having a pitty party over here. I can't make myself get out there and exercise and I keep finding excuses not too. For example, my sleep schedule has been out of whack and I'm not waking up early enough, when it's cool outside, to go run or walk. But I have a gym pass. That cancels each other out. Steve's mom had surgery and I spent a week at the hospital with them, eating out every night. Other factors are, Steve changed jobs, so there were a couple weeks where money was not coming in....but it was sure going out! But we were stressed about that for a while.
Now, I KNOW how good it feels when I exercise. I am motivated, and a better motivator! I feel fantastic and am more passionate about exciting others to feel fantastic.
Here's something else. I feel guilty about being off-line for a month here. I know that there are people who count on me for support, but how can I support them when I'm a mess? I have been putting out there into the universe that I am ready to get back on track yet it hasn't happened yet. I know it will, and maybe this blog is my turnaround point.
I have another cleanse I can do and think I am going to start it tomorrow, that way I can go to the grocery store today to prepare for it.
Thank you to my SP Buds that have kept a leash on me and not let me get completely off the charts. YOU are the reason I am blogging today and facing my demons. YOU are my reason today.