LEARN TO BE CALM AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY!
In my blog yesterday, I was questioned by a reader as to how much did I really want this? Do I really want to lose weight or am I so happy with my current body that I just don't follow a diet plan enough to lose?
So, I asked myself, why do I want to lose and what is it about 160 lbs that makes me think I want to be there? And why do I seem to not care enough about it to stick?
My last doctor's appmt was the best I ever had for cholesterol readings and heart, etc. So I'm pretty healthy at the weight I'm at even though my BMI says I am overweight. I think viewing the pics of me on the beach in my bathing suit with my flab hanging out has given me some incentive. I'm always seeing other flabby women in 2 pieces and seeing me made me realize I'm one of them.
I've mentioned that my sister lost 60 lbs a few years ago and kept most of it off. We had breakfast together in January and when she walked in wearing a nice navy pant suit, I was really proud of her for doing that. She looked great. I would like to look great like that. I also don't want to do it the way she did. I want to do it myself, thus I'm here and on WW online.
I have this roll of flab at my abdomen that I can grab in my hand. It's a little smaller than last year but still a handful. I'd like that to be gone. Mostly I put on weight over all, evenly distributed except that fat roll.
Why 160 lbs? I used to be there and when I was, I thought I was fat then. I wanted to be 150 and so everytime I tried to lose to 150, I would put on a few pounds until I finally got up to almost 190. I don't remember how I got there but it has been within the last 10 years. I have a collection of diet books and weight loss tools lying around the house. One is a dieter's diary where I am supposed to record everything I eat. On July 16, 1993, I weighed 157. On Jan 2, 1995, I weighed 162. In June 1995 I crashed and started taking anti-depressants. On 29 Feb 96, I weighed 170 so in less than a year, I gained 8 lbs. On Dec 1, 1999 I still weighed 170 but my goal was to lose to 150. In the last 10 years it has slowly crept up to 188 when I started SP this year. I think at 160 I would be WOW! I want to hear WOW!, how much weight have you lost and how did you do it? I'm vain I guess. I also want to do it without getting help from my sister.
Enough of that. Yesterday, I was faithfully counting my WW points and I put in my proposed dinner to see where I would be at the end of the day. At 2:00 I was hungry. My stomach was growling and it HURT! I was so hungry I didn't know what to do . I really wanted to stay under my points so I had a large piece of celery and water. About an hour later I was still hungry. I came to Spark at about 4:00 and put a HELP message on the WW support team! I got a few messages of encouragement and ideas of what I could do. I finally decided to have a piece of string cheese, it was protein, and a cup of hot tea with splenda. I was able to go until 5:30 when I sat down for dinner without hubby as he was late coming home. I made 20 minute chicken creole, an SP Recipe and it was delicious!!!!! I ended up the day with 4 points into my flex points but I am real proud of myself for hanging in there.
I walked the dog twice yesterday. And this morning I went for a 3 mile walk with Pat so I'm good. I have my food planned out with plenty of healthy things to eat. Tonight we are going to our local college theater to see Grease!!!