Monday, July 12, 2010
On July 4, 2010 at 9:40 pm. I heard news that both my husband's brother and his wife were killed in an accident earlier that afternoon. It was just a little over a week ago, yet, it has left an impression that I will not soon forget.
When I used to wait in heavy traffic on the highway because of an accident, I felt frustration and impatience, and would think of the inconvenience.... now I feel compassion for the people and for the families involved and for how and who all it will affect.
When I used to see flowers along the side of the road, I hardly noticed or thought much about it. Now I see every one and I can envision the families standing at that site, walking around and putting together what happened.
When I used to talk to a family member or friend who is about to take a trip, I used to say flippantly, 'Drive Safely!" Now, when I say it, it is said with meaning, concern, and a strong emotion that I feel inside, that I can't explain!
When I used to think of death, it seemed so far away, something that happens to other people. Now I realize, that every breathe I take, every day I live is truly a gift from God. I think of how people will remember me, and what kind of influence I am making on the lives of my family, friends, and even occasional acquaintances and strangers.
Maybe I am just still very emotional as we wait for the memorial service later this week... but I hope I never forget these things.... which is why I am writing... not just to share, but also for myself, to remember them for many years to come.
I thank my many friends for your thoughts, notes, and prayers for my family during this time. They are greatly appreciated and I cannot tell you in words what they have meant to us!!! (((hugs)))