Forgive Myself and Get Back on the Healthy Horse
Sunday, July 11, 2010
It feels like the summer is going to ruin me--I'm a teacher on summer vacation who requires a routine if I hope to have any success. So far in 1.5 weeks of vacation I've doubled my exercise but I've gained 10 pounds. YIKES...but even though I see I'm up on the scale, I don't feel like I'm up 10 pounds so I'd say I'm still down inches.
That social food/people thing is killing me...as is being away from the house and eating in restaurants. I can't give up...if I do, I'll put all 30 pounds back on. If I can at least maintain the 20 that are currently off then I've successfully had 20 less pounds to deal with than last summer and that's a very good thing! I feel so much more confident and I'm loving the exercise early in the morning before the heat/humidity hits. Why would I want to let this setback overtake me when I'm feeling this successful? I can start eating in moderation again. I can say no to ice cream. I can move away from the bowls of everything--grazing is a killer for me. I can start to see the scale go back down.
To be honest, I would have been happy to maintain my weight for the summer. I really didn't expect to lose more--just see the summer end where I was at the beginning. Can this happen? I will have to play with what I'm choosing to eat and with the amounts of eating. Summer is NOT an excuse for eating and falling off my healthy lifestyle horse. I'm getting loads of compliments, I'm liking what I see in the mirror and I'm feeling so much better about myself. I will not lose this battle.
To be honest, this is my first real setback since I began this journey on January 4, 2010. I had an easy go of it until now so to finally hit this yoyo plateau is not going to pull me down. I will use what I know and tackle it with a vengeance. My blood pressure is up because of the humidity and my ankles are swollen because of the humidity. Some of this weight gain is water retention, no doubt, but not all 10 pounds of it. Time to get serious and get myself back on my healthy lifestyle track.
September Update: I lost 5 of the 10 and then pretty much maintained for the summer (up and down by a few constantly). It's now been a week since I've been back to work and I'm headed down--have almost reached that 5 pound loss--can't wait for Friday's weighin. It's amazing what routine can do for me. I have stopped doing as much exercise as I was but I'm still running and walking enough to meet my weekly goal.