Saturday, July 10, 2010
My doctor has been treating me for high blood pressure for 10 years. I started having problems after I turned 40, became less physically active, and gained weight.
Yesterday, I decided it was time to move from Stage 2 (Healthy Diet Habits) to Stage 3 (Lifestyle Changes) in the 1-2-3 Diet Stage Challenge. The first step is to complete the Weight Loss Motivation Worksheet. As I completed the Health & Fitness portion, I skipped over the check box for "Lower my blood pressure."
Why? Why wouldn't someone with high blood pressure want to lower it?
I could hear the voice in the back of my head say "I don't need to do that, my BP is under control with medication." I tried to move on with the rest of the questionnaire but was stopped in my tracks by the irony of my thought. Why bother to lose weight when you can rely on little pills? This is probably an example of what 12-Step groups refer to as "Stinking Thinking." After all, my BP isn't that bad anymore. I can control it with medicine rather than do the hard work of losing more weight and exercising more.
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes." [quote from The Matrix]
I take the blue pill and stay in a happy place where pharmaceuticals and complacency let me believe whatever I want to believe about my weight and health. Time to take the red pill and follow the Challenge... wherever the Rabbit Hole leads.