flashforward(like the tvprogramm)woo hoo.i have reached goal-181.5lbs
Saturday, July 10, 2010
can you believe it on went on the scale and it read 158.5lbs,that is 1.5lbs under my goal and a total of 181.5lbs,that is like a person and a quarter.i tell you there was times when i really thought this day would never come.i still canīt belive it.how does it feel?well i will tell you how it feels,it feels bloody fantastic(excuse the french)i could jump up and down and shout it from the rooftops.i tried my dress on which i brought at the start of this diet when i was a size 58-60.it is a size 42 and been hanging outside my wardrobe door for i canīt remember how long and do you know what it is too big on me can you bvelieve that a size 42 being too big on me the last time i could say that is over 20years here.canīt wait to tell my spark buddy genia she reached her goal ages ago,you can see her in her polka dot bikini phot on her page.it has been a standing joke between us that when we get to goal we will both put on a polka dot bikini,me being muslim i couldnīt put it on my page but iwill definately be sending her a picture of me in one in the post.just have to buy the darn thing first.havenīt brought it yet as as i said i thought this day would never come.when i look back over all the years i have been here on sp and all the support from each and every one of you(not just genia)you all know who you are and you all know that i value your friendship and will be eternally gratefulto each and every one of you.i have had such alot of hardships with mine and the kids health but you have all help me to keep plugging on no matter what.and look where it has got me.fit ,healthy,thin can i use that word to describe me.YES-thin,not skinny but definately thin.i know from genia and susie and steph my other spark buddies who have reached there goal weight a while back that it is not over.if anything the work is just about to start.that of maintaining my weigh.but i can do it i know i can hey if i can loose over 180lbs i am sure i can work at making sure it stays away.that is why i have decided i will still stay here on spark,still moniter my food and keep up my exercise.i am ready and willing to take this next stage.things that will motivate me to keep it this way is the fact i can buy my clothes in a normal shop now so is cheaper,i also have more choice.more important i feel great i have more confidence than i ever had even when i used to weigh 135lb when i was competing in dance.i have took up running again even if it is only on a trweadmill at home but i am doing it.thanks beverly for leading the way there and encouraging me along the lines with if she can do it so can i.by the congratulations beverly,she just completed her first 10k at the weekend ,same to you susan,congratulations on your first marathon and it such a good time i am soo proud of you.how did i do it some new people on sp might ask i have to say with alot of blood sweat and tears,no that is not true there was no blood but a lot of sweat and also occationally alot of tears,mostly when i stepped on the scales or was frustrated with myself.seriously the best advice i could give is to keepi plugging on at it,if a huddle comes in your way,either jump it ,go round it or downright drive over it.whichever way you decide to go just do it,forget about it and on to the next hurdle.if i can do this,you can do this and that means we can do this.if i could bottle this freeling i have this precise moment as i write this i would make a fortune as it this feeling would be and is such a motivation to stay this way and not go back into my old ways.181.5lbs i still donīt believe it.wel now i let all you lot know first i am now going to phone my sisrter and let her know and then claudia to see if she wants to go on a bike ride to celerbrate.i nearly said dinner but then that would make it easy to slip into my old ways.remember to all you who havenīt met their goal yet
if i can do it anyone can.now it is time to party.
the new me