Friday, July 09, 2010
Not probably what one would think...
The "one more hr, one more hr" relates to one more hour till I can go pick up my paycheck. I simply can't wait! I have worked sooo hard for the past 3 weeks! (Two weeks for this paycheck, 1 week for the next one two weeks later.) I just came off working a solid 8 days straight, with the week before 6 days straight, with only one day off between both stints. Not all days were 8 hr days, some were 7 hrs, some 5 hrs, one 4 hour one. Some were a full 8 hrs, as over 5 hrs there's a 35 min unpaid break, but sometimes I worked an extra 30-35 minutes so I was able to pick up those "lost paycheck minutes."
I'm sooo exhausted. Been trying to sleep, sleep, sleep the past 3 days to get back to feeling normal. The hours I work aren't normal; they're all over the place. Going in at 10 am, noon, 2 pm, 4pm, 6 pm, 10 pm; working till 6 pm, 8 pm, 10 pm, midnight, 1 am, 2 am--with Every Single Day a varied start/end time. Sometimes get off at 2 am, back to work by noon the next day, etc. Wasn't necessarily scheduled for all those days of work. Had days off scheduled but got (luckily!) called in to fill shifts for co-workers who couldn't make their shifts.
I have been struggling trying to get enough hrs, shifts per week in order to survive. Many times just get scheduled for 1-2 days per week, but then am able to pick up another day or two per week to fill-in for those who can't make it. But I'll get called sometimes with a request of: "how soon can you get here?" Wonderful, but also makes me very jittery as I can't relax every hour of every day hoping I'll get called, or else plans for the day/time need to be *immediately* shelved. Whenever I usually go check the new schedule that's posted once a week I get a gut-wrenching, disheartening feeling looking at how little I'm scheduled to work per week, knowing that I can't relax & write on my book or exercise or eat well since I'm just going to have to (once again) keep hustling for hours for the week to make enough in the ensuing paycheck so that I can survive.
Last week though I was called into the office & "promoted" of sorts. After 9 months on the job I was finally given a set schedule of 5 days per week! Late evenings mostly, and only 6 hrs each day, (minus the 35 min unpaid break), but the best part is that now I'll KNOW when I'm to work, I can work a REAL WORKABLE SCHEDULE for my "own life" around this, I won't have that gut-wrenching feeling in the pit of my stomach week-to-week-to-week around this anymore, etc, etc, etc.
Two big problems still loom with this, but I'll blog about them later.