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My Season

Thursday, July 08, 2010

I'm not sure if it is a "40 something" kind of season but it is hard to prioritize right now. My Dad has terminal cancer and his time is short, my 17 year old is stretching his wings. I have a boss who is not qualified to do his job and does not recognize those who are trying to cover his backside.

In January last year I went from running a large organization to being in the shadows (no demotion just not being utilized). I decided it would be a great time to invest in myself. I have given myself 18 month to loose weight and be fit. I have done well but with everything going on right now it is hard to focus. There are not enough hours in a day to do everything I need to. I'm sure my wonderful Husband feels like he is not anywhere on my priority list. My faith in God gets me through most of the time but I constantly feel like I can't do enough.

When I struggle in life I have tried to evaluate what God wants me to learn from this situation. The pain of loosing my Dad is so overwhelming and there is nothing I can do, I'm so sad. How do I get through this season? My 17 year old is challenging me and I only want the best for him, I see him making choices that will make life harder. How do I get through this season? Work... I'm thankful for having a job right now.

This was to be a season for myself. I struggle between being selfish and focusing on me vs owning the burdens I can not control. When does this season end?

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    I'm sorry to hear about your dad. That's a hard one to deal with.

    Having a teenager can be a real challenge sometimes. I guess that we can only guide them as best we can and hope that they make good choices.

    I know what it's like to not have enough hours in the day. I often wonder when I will ever have some time for what I want. Sometimes I just get so frustrated that I could sit and cry.

    However, when I am feeling a bit overwhelmed I remember the Serenity Prayer:

    "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."

    It really puts things in perspective.

    2812 days ago
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