Wednesday, July 07, 2010
to break my plan. I could easily chow down on some licorice or skittles or chips right about now. But that's what got me into this mess in the first place! It's amazing how a simple little package of tasty goodness can leave you with a muffin top that hours at the gym may or may not remove. I'm doing okay... maybe struggling a little bit... I lifted yesterday and was starving all morning today! Greek yogurt w/ fresh blackberries & a tsp of raw sugar... a hard boiled egg... a cup of dry Cheerios... mixed nuts, raw veggies and half a tbsp of Annie's Goddess dressing. And I was still starving. Oh I know what hungry feels like today! Oh yes I do! I had LC spaghetti and a small peppermint patty for lunch. I finally feel almost satisfied. I'm going to drink some water and hang in there... this, too, shall pass.
I've slept poorly the last couple of nights - stressed for a variety of reasons. And right at this moment work is a little slow - hopefully I'll get a new assignment soon and things will pick up! I'm sure they will... and then I'll want to eat due to stress instead of boredom. :) Oh yes, that's how my lovely appetite works!
I'm ready for a change... I mean a real, big, meaningful change... not sure what that will be... hopefully it's weightloss and liking myself a bit more... but it's hard to say. I have several balls in the air at the moment. I just need security and satisfaction... I feel like I'm close but I've still got a ways to go...
No short-term solutions for me today, though. Today I stick to the plan and feel the hunger knowing it will help lead me to my goal.